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Ok so I have a lot to update...so be prepared!!! lol So last week, wednesday night we had a one on one with another fraternity. Which was so fun!!! Then Thursday, Lauren came up and we went to Spartys!! That was soooooooooooo fun because I met the cutest guy ever who was tall and had a nice smile and he asked me to dance and at first I turned him down by accident. lol Yea...I know Im a retard...but Lauren took control of the situation and called him over and I ended up dancing with him for the rest of the night and he got his really hot friend Jay to dance with Lauren and I think she had a good time too! lol Then Friday, I got up for my early math class and then went to the Kresge Museum...which was so cool. I really love art...I dunno why I just do! lol I guess thats my mother's influence. Then came back and I showed Lauren the Landings, where mal and I will be living next year (SO EXCITED!!!), and Lauren liked it! lol Then we drove back to good ol' GP and Steve Griffith hitched a ride with us...so it was a nice lil GP reunion! lol I still cant believe that Ive been going to school with that kid since 2nd grade!! AWESOME! haha Then Friday, me, linds, and Lauren saw "Hitch" and that was soooooooo cute!!! Also, thats when the spartans beat Duke! HELL YEA!!! lol Linds was getting updates through out the movie...it was pretty funny. Then on Saturday...I was supposed to go to Windsor with Mike and his friends and I was bringing Linds...but it didnt work out. Im kinda bumbed about that but what can ya do? Then on Easter Sunday, just my Dad and I went to church. It was unusually not busy whatsoever. The thing that really stuck out in my mind was what Father Pete was saying during mass. He talked about doubting thomas and how so many believers are very skeptical. I think this was the first time that I actually paid attention in church because for once I could relate to it. For a while now I have been very skeptical about my life. For so many years, I prayed that my Grandpa would survive cancer or that Sharon would have gotten better. But, I feel like my prayers werent answered. Its been I think 4 years since my Grandpa passed away and I still cry cuz I miss him so much. Im still in denial that hes gone and that hes missed so much already. I keep wishing that someday he may come back...but I have to accept that he's not going to. I hate that the lord took Sharon away from me. She didnt deserve to suffer like she did and nor did my Grandpa. I guess Im just filled with a lot of unanswered questions and Im pretty skeptical on my faith right now. I believe in God and I know that he has given me a wonderful life...its just I feel that everyone I care so deeply about gets taken away from me. Im sorry to go all religious on y'all but Im just kinda filling this part with my thoughts. It's how Ive been feeling for a while now and I guess it was reassuring that Im not the only skeptical christian. In reality, I guess Im just another Doubting Thomas. Anyways...at the end of church I got the guts to tell everyone during the birthday thing that it was my dads bday and I dunno it was pretty funny! Then came back and worked on some hw and then packed up and headed back to school. Which was the most intense ride back ever! We watched the first period of the MSU vs. Kentucky bball game and then left and listened to the game on the radio! NEVER AGAIN!! You never knew what was going on and we were going crazy. So we get back to State just as they're entering the second overtime...we ran up to the room and watched the rest with linds! The campus went crazy!!! lol This random guy came up to me and gave me such a big hug that I almost fell over. Then a really hot hockey player gave me a high five in the hallway...damn that made my night! lol Actually, talking to Matt on the phone made my night!! ;-) lol Then yesterday came. What an interesting/backwards day! lol ok well first of all, it was fuckin gorgeous out! Just like today! lol Then on the way to my IAH class apparently Ben called me. I missed his call and didnt realize that he called me till I was in class. So I called him back and he didnt answer. Yea...so fuckin random! lol Well after class, he called me back and was like I saw you and tried to catch up to you but then you wer gone and well I wanted to call you. I was like ok and then his friend was calling and I hung up with him and called my mom to tell her that hell just froze over cuz hot hot hot fuckin so fine Ben called me! Then so Im talking to her and he calls back!! He was total usual friendly Ben and he asked what I had been up to lately cuz it had been a while since we last chatted and then I asked him the same. He says "yea nothin really other then studying. Its really pathetic that I cant come up with an excuse for the past 2 months"...lol I was NO FUCKIN SHIT! haha Hey! At least he knows that he fucked up! Then we got our papers back in IAH...yes the one that I wrote the afternoon before it was due! Yes the one that required the books that didnt arrive here till wednesday night! lol Yea well I got a 3.8!!! I so dont deserve that grade cuz that paper sucked! lol OH WELL! IM SO HAPPY!!!! :-D Then much later last night, Mal IMs me asking if she can use my shower cuz case's water wasnt working! How ghetto is that?!?!??! lol So she came over and we chatted it up! lol That bitch is still fuckin tan!!!! lmao JK LOVES MAL!!! So yea...last night I got 4 hours of sleep cuz I was way worried about a friend of mine...he totally scared me and I dunno bad memories came back from my Grandpa and I got really sad for him and I dunno...I just feel so bad for him...hes such an incredible person. But I know that he'll be ok. This morning I got to see my 2nd graders! Which I love!!! Those kids are just too cool! lol Tonight, I have IAH class, then sorority meeting, then studying with sarah for macroeconomics, hanging out with my friend Brian, and then more studying. Tomorrow I have my macroeconomics exam and my sorority new member test! Im so nervous for both! DAMN! :-/ Then Thursday I have to turn my IAH magazine project in early and then my parents are coming to pick me up to go to Grand Rapids and then picking up Lauren at the train station and then goin to the Van Andel arena to see KENNY CHESNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!! Im so excited!!!! lol Then back here Thursday night with Lauren and then Friday I have an early class and then I have to go check in for relay for life and then just leave. Then the Masquerade Ball!!! Then I have my shifts for relay for life on saturday morning starting at 6 am and ending at 10 am!!! Then that night is the big game against North Carolina I believe. Campus is gonna be crazy! Im so excited!!! :-D Then sunday...well Ill be dead! lol Then next week is Greek week and Initiation week!!! Im gonna die!!! lol Wow...I think that Ive updated enough for now!!! Ill ttyl!!!

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