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i...am so unbelievably angry right now. so i go to simon's this morning. fine. good. and then i get a call from liz. now, i was trying really hard not to get too excited, because in my life, when i get excited about something, it promptly disappears or doesn't happen. but i just was bursting and had to tell a few people. but she calls me and says, "hey, i gotta finish up this art piece for my grandmother." and so of course, i say "okay, sure, whatever. just gimme a call when you're done." and she says, "okay." so then i hang around with simon for four hours and wait and get anxious and drive him wherever he wants to go and generally have a nice time. and then i have to leave there because it's five-thirty and they're having dinner. still no call from liz. as i'm leaving simon's, ari calls me and says "i'm bored on the road." and i say, "i'm waiting excitedly for liz to call me". and she says, "oh, come over." so i go over. and we chill until it's eight o'clock. she's been trying to convince me that liz just probably forgot and that we should go over to her house and walk in. finally i say fine, and we drive over, under the pretense that ari wants her anime back, because i want to look cool and not anxious about seeing liz at all. so we go over. and we walk in, cause apparently that's what you do there. and liz comes down, all decked out for an evening on the town, and says, "oh, hey, i'm about to leave." i'm stunned for a sec. she gives up the anime and then leaves with three friends or relatives or whatever. over the din of people deciding what car to take, she says, "sorry i didn't get to call you." "it's okay," i reply, just generally stunned, but still smiling because i don't really know what's going on, and then she leaves. in the nearby parking lot, ari yells something jokingly to liz about how she smells. real funny. liz barely looked at me.
on top of all that, i get some disturbing calls from my parents about money, and a book i ordered being a thousand dollars. trying not to cry, i rushed home and looked at the damn piece of paper. right next to the thousand dollar thing, it says, handwritten, "US dollars 61". my parents are apparently illiterate. i got no apology, nothing. i'll admit, i charged angrily into the house and yelled. but i'm bleeding, just got my spirit dented a little, and haven't eaten. so i thought i'd come up to my room and rant a bit. sigh.
so, did liz find better plans and just lie and say she was working on something? did she finish and just forget to call me? some combination thereof? i really don't want to be pissed at her, so i won't, because i still basically want to get in her pants. and she seems to be normal most of the time. i just feel a little set back, tonight. there's some quote from hamlet about sorrows not coming alone, but in battalions. i feel shitty.
thanks, ari. you were so wonderful tonight. without your help, i'd be an uncalled wreck sitting in my car.
on top of all that, i get some disturbing calls from my parents about money, and a book i ordered being a thousand dollars. trying not to cry, i rushed home and looked at the damn piece of paper. right next to the thousand dollar thing, it says, handwritten, "US dollars 61". my parents are apparently illiterate. i got no apology, nothing. i'll admit, i charged angrily into the house and yelled. but i'm bleeding, just got my spirit dented a little, and haven't eaten. so i thought i'd come up to my room and rant a bit. sigh.
so, did liz find better plans and just lie and say she was working on something? did she finish and just forget to call me? some combination thereof? i really don't want to be pissed at her, so i won't, because i still basically want to get in her pants. and she seems to be normal most of the time. i just feel a little set back, tonight. there's some quote from hamlet about sorrows not coming alone, but in battalions. i feel shitty.
thanks, ari. you were so wonderful tonight. without your help, i'd be an uncalled wreck sitting in my car.