One infinite moment
Tonight, I ventured out on a whim to see the National Symphony Orchestra with several members of one of the groups I'm in.
The quality and fullness of the sound made the humidity seem to disappear. It felt like the summer nights of my childhood-- the ones that went on forever and were filled with fireflies and grass colored knees. People covered the lawn-- some listening raptly, others engaged in debate with their friends and others families playing with their children. One family sat in front of me, alternately taking turns dancing with their giggling daughter; rocketing her into the air, turning her, bouncing her up and down. She was having a riot and they looked so happy. For the first moment in my life, I thought "This is something I'll do with my kids. I want them to grow up hearing music being with me.
After some time, I laid down feeling that, while seeing many shadows of the people who had also gathered to hear this music made me feel a part of something, I wanted some solitude.
As I lay there, the grass tickling my bare neck; staring at the sky which was splashed with shades of purple and pink and covered in clouds; the capitol building, though upside down, lighting the background like a large star; the faces trees and people imbued in a soft glow from the street lights behind them; I felt myself completely relax. In that moment I felt complete peace, and in that moment I fell in love with the universe all over again.
The longer the music played the more I felt I understood the famous line from Perks of being a wallflower because, surely, if some perfect, unattainable infinity existed, this was it.
The quality and fullness of the sound made the humidity seem to disappear. It felt like the summer nights of my childhood-- the ones that went on forever and were filled with fireflies and grass colored knees. People covered the lawn-- some listening raptly, others engaged in debate with their friends and others families playing with their children. One family sat in front of me, alternately taking turns dancing with their giggling daughter; rocketing her into the air, turning her, bouncing her up and down. She was having a riot and they looked so happy. For the first moment in my life, I thought "This is something I'll do with my kids. I want them to grow up hearing music being with me.
Click to viewAfter some time, I laid down feeling that, while seeing many shadows of the people who had also gathered to hear this music made me feel a part of something, I wanted some solitude.
As I lay there, the grass tickling my bare neck; staring at the sky which was splashed with shades of purple and pink and covered in clouds; the capitol building, though upside down, lighting the background like a large star; the faces trees and people imbued in a soft glow from the street lights behind them; I felt myself completely relax. In that moment I felt complete peace, and in that moment I fell in love with the universe all over again.
The longer the music played the more I felt I understood the famous line from Perks of being a wallflower because, surely, if some perfect, unattainable infinity existed, this was it.