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Carly came over this weekend and we had a wonderful time! Including going to a party for Anthony's birffday on a $2 million yacht. Sweet. And I got a surface piercing on my chest. Holly took pictures of the piercing process. LOTS OF BLOOD. Sweet. I like it so far. For me, it symbolizes my "center" and reminds me to remember my heart and meditation. I need something to remind me. It's easy to forget myself in this busy world. It's still sore now. It'll be about 4 months until it heals.
I'm hoping I'll get a job soon so I can get a membership at 24 fitness, cause Bally's sucks. I have some guest passes and have done some yoga. I really like it.
I don't feel right. Like I don't really exist, or shouldn't. I'm becoming more depressed. They increased my dose again. I haven't been happy in so long. I think I've only been genuinely happy once: when I worked in politics. I felt like I belonged to something for the first time. I don't feel like I'll ever be happy or love again.. Hmm.. :/
And I'm much less affectionate than I used to be. I've really distanced myself from people.
And:
I also have some GORY pictures of the piercing process. I'll have them later.
It hurt so good. MADE ME FEEL REAAAAAAAAAAL.
I'm hoping I'll get a job soon so I can get a membership at 24 fitness, cause Bally's sucks. I have some guest passes and have done some yoga. I really like it.
I don't feel right. Like I don't really exist, or shouldn't. I'm becoming more depressed. They increased my dose again. I haven't been happy in so long. I think I've only been genuinely happy once: when I worked in politics. I felt like I belonged to something for the first time. I don't feel like I'll ever be happy or love again.. Hmm.. :/
And I'm much less affectionate than I used to be. I've really distanced myself from people.
And:
I also have some GORY pictures of the piercing process. I'll have them later.
It hurt so good. MADE ME FEEL REAAAAAAAAAAL.