Apr 18, 2009 03:59
And hand out the last few charms.
The key I've been searching for has been discovered. This key I speak of... it unlocks the chest. This chest I speak of.... it contains all of the love and respect and selfworth I rid myself of oh so many times. I'll wave hello, and wish I'd never waved goodbye. This love I speak of... it was distributed to my family, to my friends, to myself and life. This respect I speak of... it was saved for my parents who raised me through their own troubles, for my brothers who helped raise me and have fought for our country, for my sister who has held her moral ground for 18 years and for those better than myself. This self-worth I speak of... it was the drive behind my writing, the smile behind the smile, the wonder in my eyes and the potential for the future.
When all is unlocked, I will hear that which I haven't heard since the day it was closed.
But all you will hear, my friends, is a simple click.
Look ma, the sun is shining on me.
Someone was locked in with all I left. I fear what may happen if I finally face him again. The shame of ever locking him away. However, every earthly being seems to be far away from this life. So I will need him by my side. And I will happily welcome the spirit back. The spirit that has lifted me above all I've faced. Although this is the furthest I've found myself from the sunlight... I can see it.
I'm finally comfortable dismissing that which dismisses me. I'm comfortable leaving those who leave me. For I can never leave myself. Not again. I'll hold 'til my palms bleed. I'll hold 'til my muscles burn. But I'll never let go. I will reach the end. With or without you.
I've glimpsed the road.
It's almost over... throw away your four-leaf clovers.