this is not a haphazard maneuver

[lofidelityinred]

woke up this morning to blondies "one way or another" in my head
and bob between my arms
i dont know at what point he snuck into my bed
but his presence was much needed
--i think that my dogs my soulmate, what of it--

ive therapy tonight, and for the first time since the beginning
i am thankful
im willing to admit defeat and latch onto desperation
if it will get me through today.

i dont belong here
i feel it more than see it
and i think my feelings are more right than my sight
i feel more like a stranger each time i come home....
let me walk away please...