i feel like a whole part of my mind and myself is being wasted by sticking with my current major. sure its something im interested in.. but is it something i want to make a life of? i highly doubt it. i doubt ill ever learn to say things meaningful enough to make someone want to change their lives, to make someone want to stop being an addict. and moreover, i have too much sympathy for (them). ive..done it, and know why, well within my own reasons of course, and i know that sometimes you just dont want to get better. and i completely empathize with that, because im not sure that i really got better for myself or if i just "got better" because its the right thing to do by society. and i didnt get better. so..with that said, i think at this time, itd be more beneficial to me to pursue something that challenges my brain, and myself, and to do something i love. psychology/social work is more or less the easy way out for me, it comes naturally, i dont buy my books, i dont study..and it just seems..not right. lately.
but fall, yah falls got me all fucked up. me and the rest of the world i think.
we should sit down, have words. coffee... something like that.
i feel like a whole part of my mind and myself is being wasted by sticking with my current major. sure its something im interested in.. but is it something i want to make a life of? i highly doubt it. i doubt ill ever learn to say things meaningful enough to make someone want to change their lives, to make someone want to stop being an addict. and moreover, i have too much sympathy for (them). ive..done it, and know why, well within my own reasons of course, and i know that sometimes you just dont want to get better. and i completely empathize with that, because im not sure that i really got better for myself or if i just "got better" because its the right thing to do by society. and i didnt get better.
so..with that said, i think at this time, itd be more beneficial to me to pursue something that challenges my brain, and myself, and to do something i love.
psychology/social work is more or less the easy way out for me, it comes naturally, i dont buy my books, i dont study..and it just seems..not right. lately.
but fall, yah falls got me all fucked up. me and the rest of the world i think.
we should sit down, have words. coffee... something like that.
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