do i?
I’m at one of those stages where I want to hurt myself cause of my own inductiveness.
Do I want to move?
Do I want to take out a personal loan and get rid of all my debts and just have one payment instead of 3 payments per month?
Do I want to get a car?
Do I want to live alone again?
Do I want to move to Melbourne now?
Do I want to find a better job that pays more? (Cause we all know I could find one like that *snaps fingers* if I wanted to.)
Problems -
Money - biggest issue, isn’t that always the way?
If I move to Melbourne I will definitely need a car (and insurance on all my possessions considering how much they all add up to… - guitar, mics, computers, cameras, bedroom suit… ok yea mainly computers and cameras…. Though I’d be just as lost without my guitar and mic…
I mean, I have someone who’s currently dying to move in with me in Melbourne (right kays? ;) )
But I am worried about work, and money.
And it’s getting to me so bad at the moment, mainly because I can’t get to sleep, my head is trying to keep busy instead of time wasting, that I want to hurt something. Lash out violently and vent.
And live journal is down, so I’m writing this in word and I probably won’t even post it. Like all the entries I write on when I can’t post.
In better news, it’s my godson’s first birthday this weekend, and yesterday, I opened him a savings account. $10 automatically goes into his account from my account every month. I worked it out, if I don’t put anything else in but for the $10 a month, 12 months a year for the next 17 yrs (going to his 18th) he’ll have $2,040 from me…
It’s a lot for me. But I will probably put loose change into his account, and random deposits like I do my own…
I currently have $150 in my savings account… give or take a few dollars…
So I’m like… way off on my dream to use the money for a decent reason. Something I want not something I need.
Like, a holiday, or something for my camera.
Whichever comes first.
Slowly starting to download season 2 of Gossip Girl…
Got the first two eps. Working on 3 and 4.
And Kays, one more thing… you keep getting this song stuck in my head!
“I am human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does,
See I’ve already waited too long, and all my hope is gone…”
So feel like that when it comes to romance.
But I know that’s just cause I’m dreaming of impossible loves. Lol
Right lets try sleep for the 4th time tonight… clocking off at 5am
Posting at 6am… still no sign of sleep… was hoping you’d be on kays :D but alas… it must be too early.
Do I want to move?
Do I want to take out a personal loan and get rid of all my debts and just have one payment instead of 3 payments per month?
Do I want to get a car?
Do I want to live alone again?
Do I want to move to Melbourne now?
Do I want to find a better job that pays more? (Cause we all know I could find one like that *snaps fingers* if I wanted to.)
Problems -
Money - biggest issue, isn’t that always the way?
If I move to Melbourne I will definitely need a car (and insurance on all my possessions considering how much they all add up to… - guitar, mics, computers, cameras, bedroom suit… ok yea mainly computers and cameras…. Though I’d be just as lost without my guitar and mic…
I mean, I have someone who’s currently dying to move in with me in Melbourne (right kays? ;) )
But I am worried about work, and money.
And it’s getting to me so bad at the moment, mainly because I can’t get to sleep, my head is trying to keep busy instead of time wasting, that I want to hurt something. Lash out violently and vent.
And live journal is down, so I’m writing this in word and I probably won’t even post it. Like all the entries I write on when I can’t post.
In better news, it’s my godson’s first birthday this weekend, and yesterday, I opened him a savings account. $10 automatically goes into his account from my account every month. I worked it out, if I don’t put anything else in but for the $10 a month, 12 months a year for the next 17 yrs (going to his 18th) he’ll have $2,040 from me…
It’s a lot for me. But I will probably put loose change into his account, and random deposits like I do my own…
I currently have $150 in my savings account… give or take a few dollars…
So I’m like… way off on my dream to use the money for a decent reason. Something I want not something I need.
Like, a holiday, or something for my camera.
Whichever comes first.
Slowly starting to download season 2 of Gossip Girl…
Got the first two eps. Working on 3 and 4.
And Kays, one more thing… you keep getting this song stuck in my head!
“I am human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does,
See I’ve already waited too long, and all my hope is gone…”
So feel like that when it comes to romance.
But I know that’s just cause I’m dreaming of impossible loves. Lol
Right lets try sleep for the 4th time tonight… clocking off at 5am
Posting at 6am… still no sign of sleep… was hoping you’d be on kays :D but alas… it must be too early.