three hours of calm felt like enough

[lodger]

holidays started early with a bunch of chewing. i did not go in to work on saturday or sunday and that may get me into hot water because i am going to officially be on 8 days off starting tomorrow. late night sounds startling me, playing a game until all hours of the next day, there was no energy left to go. a few times caught by drifting thoughts about people and change and how it all falls on heads at the wrong time. when everything seems so cut-in-stone perfect, the glass gets broken. strange glances, bedhead, written in codes. silly strangeness. nowhere started where this is ending.

as long as the day is dull, it should be slow and soft, the loud inane secret will be safe kept.