is it just me
sealion
why, if you can even answer this question, do we or i seem to care so deeply for people that dont give a shit about me.
i used to really love this one friend of mine. i thought i was what they claimed to never have. i lended advice, loved unconditionally, TRUSTED with everything, fell in love while they supported, fell out of love while they understood, held their hair while puking was the only option.... sceptic mind..... im just so frustrated. what did i do wrong? lend some advice that i thought would help... just because it didnt doesnt mean it was my fault. they saw my intentions in an other light... a pessimistic light... or were just influenced by others.
im just frustrated because i want to let go of all the bullshit but all i can think is, how can i fix things...make them how they used to be. WELL maybe the way things were, just were not for me. my life has changed so drastically that maybe this past that i thought was good for me... just wasnt. im with a man who truly loves me... flaws and all. there isnt a nook or craney he doesnt know about and he accepts me for just those things. and i have family that have been so supportive of me esspecially in this last little while with all the new news. and i have friends that stand by me. i couldnt be more thankful for anne marie, michelle and paul. no matter how long AMF and i went without talking, we always had a sense of how each other were. when her mom died you better believe i dropped everything and went to be with her through it all. 25 years of age with no more mother. fuck....and here i am complaining about what use to be. what a strong resiliant woman she is. ..... quality of life.... what can we chalk that up to be?
welp... see ya later
why, if you can even answer this question, do we or i seem to care so deeply for people that dont give a shit about me.
i used to really love this one friend of mine. i thought i was what they claimed to never have. i lended advice, loved unconditionally, TRUSTED with everything, fell in love while they supported, fell out of love while they understood, held their hair while puking was the only option.... sceptic mind..... im just so frustrated. what did i do wrong? lend some advice that i thought would help... just because it didnt doesnt mean it was my fault. they saw my intentions in an other light... a pessimistic light... or were just influenced by others.
im just frustrated because i want to let go of all the bullshit but all i can think is, how can i fix things...make them how they used to be. WELL maybe the way things were, just were not for me. my life has changed so drastically that maybe this past that i thought was good for me... just wasnt. im with a man who truly loves me... flaws and all. there isnt a nook or craney he doesnt know about and he accepts me for just those things. and i have family that have been so supportive of me esspecially in this last little while with all the new news. and i have friends that stand by me. i couldnt be more thankful for anne marie, michelle and paul. no matter how long AMF and i went without talking, we always had a sense of how each other were. when her mom died you better believe i dropped everything and went to be with her through it all. 25 years of age with no more mother. fuck....and here i am complaining about what use to be. what a strong resiliant woman she is. ..... quality of life.... what can we chalk that up to be?
welp... see ya later