Some wild creature has taken command. I gave him the keys and he's stomping through the house.

[lodessa]

1)Hi all. I am getting back on the workout and eating better path and will probably start talking about it again. I've added a number of new people since the last time I asked about this and some of you may have changed your feelings on the subject. So I'm polling to see who wants to be on the filter. If you are on the current one and don't

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[countouttheday]

1) I think at this point I'd rather be off it. I am starting to think that following my body's cues is far more important than eating a certain way and it's impossible to do that once you start thinking about calories of this or grams of that. Same with exercising. I love it until I think of it in terms of calories burned

[lodessa]

1) Totally understand. Mainly for me it's about being aware of what I'm eating... because when I don't I eat so much crap.

2) I never turn mine off either. What if something important happened?

4) One of his mother's chambermaids. He was about 12. She was easy to persuade, he let her think she was the one doing the seducing.

[countouttheday]

1) I eat pretty healthy when I'm not aware (sometimes I forget how unusual my taste in food is cf tomato paste and hated of sugar), but when I am aware, it's a disaster. I'm constantly wracked with guilt and can't concentrate on anything but what I ate and how much. I mean, it's not a textbook eating disorder, but it's obsessive and mildly physically self-destructive (seriously mentally so). I did succeed in getting my physical without finding out my weight, though, so my New Years' Resolution is still on track.

2) I never think of the good important things, though. Only the bad ones. I left work yesterday and went to the gym by work to do yoga, realizing on my way I'd forgotten my phone. I just HAD to go back to get it (especially as boy is away and there would have been no phones at all here). Though apparently my boss had seen that I left it and became worried that I'd rushed out because something was wrong. She is so nice (if very disorganized).

[lodessa]

1) I totally get that from having read your journal and such. Part of my problem is the people around me are always encouraging bad eating. So it's hard not to go with the flow.

[countouttheday]

Yeah, it got really bad. It's better now, but there's still backsliding into obsession. The fact that I'm becoming ridiculously buff helps, as does actually eating enough. Hunger makes it impossible to concentrate. But, yeah, there are days where I obsess as if my body size is the only important thing about me. How sad it would be if that were truly the case!

I think part of listening to your body is ignoring the influences around you. Just because someone else is having something doesn't mean you need to and just because they're not doesn't mean you can't. I mean, there's compromise if you're sharing a meal, but I've learned to take ownership of myself and that helps.

[lodessa]

We are almost always sharing a meal. Also a lot of it comes down to being really tired and worn down and having no energy to deal. So I have to force myself to think "is this really what I want?"

[countouttheday]

Yeah, that happens with me and Matt a fair amount, too. He is part of the problem because he doesn't like chicken. (in fact, with him away, I am ordering chicken fajitas even though I maybe want steak). But mostly we compromise and while at first I was annoyed he didn't want whole grains most of the time, I soon realized that not eating whole grain at every meal actually makes me feel better.

Yeah, there is such a thing as eating too healthy, and I was doing it... :\

[lodessa]

Yeah. There's definitely a healthy medium. Like I try and add extra vegetables to every meal and have whole grain rice but I have regular pasta. Your body needs all kinds of things, just in different amounts.

I can see how it would be easy to you to go overboard since you don't like sweets or cheese to begin with.