happy now?
a great friend of mine told me not to let the comments i was getting get to me.
but the comments are right...i'm a horrible person, and all of you would just be way better off without me...
every single one of you would...
i'm sitting in here in tears because of your comments..i hate myself.. HAPPY?!
i hate the person that i am, and you all deserve a better friend than me...you all deserve better...my friends, my family, the world...you all deserve someone better...and i'm sorry that i'm not such a great person?!
the anonomous comments hurt...i hate realizing that i just make people hurt...and that people deserve better...because its absolutly true...and it seems that the people i love the most, are the people i hurt the most...their the ones that i try to please so hard...and the ones i feel the most defeat with when their unhappy...
i'm sorry for that last entry...maybe brett was right, maybe it wasnt hate, because if it was i would have said names to be hurtful..maybe i dont hate them..
brett your right...i think that in this situation these people that i was talking about have hurt people around me, and i feel hurt by it...i have been hurt by these individuals as well, but i see it happen to others by them more than to me because its always behind backs..never to anyones faces...you just hear what happens to you from others...never the hurtful ones themselves...i love darrell with all my heart..kathrin goes and tells people im too young, and that i cant love him, but your never too young to love someone...your never too young to expierience feelings when your with someone that are unreal and indescribable. so im sorry brett..
im sorry everyone...
i'll just leave you all alone.
but the comments are right...i'm a horrible person, and all of you would just be way better off without me...
every single one of you would...
i'm sitting in here in tears because of your comments..i hate myself.. HAPPY?!
i hate the person that i am, and you all deserve a better friend than me...you all deserve better...my friends, my family, the world...you all deserve someone better...and i'm sorry that i'm not such a great person?!
the anonomous comments hurt...i hate realizing that i just make people hurt...and that people deserve better...because its absolutly true...and it seems that the people i love the most, are the people i hurt the most...their the ones that i try to please so hard...and the ones i feel the most defeat with when their unhappy...
i'm sorry for that last entry...maybe brett was right, maybe it wasnt hate, because if it was i would have said names to be hurtful..maybe i dont hate them..
brett your right...i think that in this situation these people that i was talking about have hurt people around me, and i feel hurt by it...i have been hurt by these individuals as well, but i see it happen to others by them more than to me because its always behind backs..never to anyones faces...you just hear what happens to you from others...never the hurtful ones themselves...i love darrell with all my heart..kathrin goes and tells people im too young, and that i cant love him, but your never too young to love someone...your never too young to expierience feelings when your with someone that are unreal and indescribable. so im sorry brett..
im sorry everyone...
i'll just leave you all alone.