The running theory
Its getting easier to look to the future, as a whole... more painful to look to the past.
Today is of failure. Hungover on zyprexa, cbd got me high, i overspent, i accomplished also nothing. Had a few run ins with a few "past" people. Each mighr as well had a sign around there necks "not here, not in the last"
If i am to recapture that feeling, the human holding it right now probably isnt someone from *before* (bless, ill be wrong though plx) ...
I dont know what exactly to do, trust instinct? That got me moe in the first place. Too many false positively floating around rn.
Being compromised today didnt help. Torpedoed the routines too. Intrusove thoughts were hard to handle (but still like x10 easier than they were)...
I hope she calls soon, while its still easy to brinf her home... otherwise, the idea of importing another isnt palatable. My selection pool gets real small real fast that way though..
Ugh brb sleep
