The Idiosyn"crazies" of Expectation.
There are many times in recent history that I feel a great need to smack myself on the head. I have a very warped perception of Expectations. Expectations of myself, my family, my friends, my colleagues, the people I work with, I become to realise that I have a potential to become a really ugly and destructive monster. Having said that, I guess on the flip side is that I'm a lot more conscious of my pysche and my expectations. I struggle, more often than not. Another part of my personality trait is that I tend to over-compenstate, and that in itself is usually very self-destructive. Happy balance is something that I hope I can achieve, but the target is rather very far.
I need to re-assess my life. Sub-consciously, I am somewhat troubled by the inanity of my life. However, (perhaps in my desperate need to over-compenstate) I consciously make known to myself that my life is going great. I Do have everything that I need. The question is, What the hell do I want?
Maybe a retreat would be good. I should check myself in a nice hotel somewhere and pen my thoughts and feelings.
I need to re-assess my life. Sub-consciously, I am somewhat troubled by the inanity of my life. However, (perhaps in my desperate need to over-compenstate) I consciously make known to myself that my life is going great. I Do have everything that I need. The question is, What the hell do I want?
Maybe a retreat would be good. I should check myself in a nice hotel somewhere and pen my thoughts and feelings.