Journey's end
Despite all the lead time a person can have, can one really prepare oneself to say goodbye?
I had some quiet time on the way home from my last meeting. My thoughts didn't stray very far from the work that I had, but I began to realise that the sense of discomfort that I had was from the dull aching of my heart. Despite what I would like to think, I am a sentimentalist at heart. I realised that next week would be the last time that I would see some people whom I took for granted to be a fixture in my life. It has reached a point in time in my life that I can't really lie to myself, I won't be able to make time to see any one of them anymore.
I am aware that I have a reputation to be ruthless, selfish and mercenary. There have been many times that I have been accused of using and dumping people along the way. I don't see a point to repudiate this. I feel sad that nobody has the time to get to know another person better these days. In a sad and sordid way, I wish I was ruthless, selfish and mercenary.
That way, saying good bye wouldn't hurt so much as it does now
.
I had some quiet time on the way home from my last meeting. My thoughts didn't stray very far from the work that I had, but I began to realise that the sense of discomfort that I had was from the dull aching of my heart. Despite what I would like to think, I am a sentimentalist at heart. I realised that next week would be the last time that I would see some people whom I took for granted to be a fixture in my life. It has reached a point in time in my life that I can't really lie to myself, I won't be able to make time to see any one of them anymore.
I am aware that I have a reputation to be ruthless, selfish and mercenary. There have been many times that I have been accused of using and dumping people along the way. I don't see a point to repudiate this. I feel sad that nobody has the time to get to know another person better these days. In a sad and sordid way, I wish I was ruthless, selfish and mercenary.
That way, saying good bye wouldn't hurt so much as it does now
.