so...I might just be having a panic attack...maybe...

Apr 19, 2009 17:38

I found, quite literally the PERFECT job. It's EXACTLY what I've been looking for, it's an assistant manager/groom position at a gorgeous 40 acre farm set in the mountains. The barn is immaculate, green huge pastures, comes with it's own private 1 bed/1 bath house with porch, all utilities paid like....PERFECT

CEPT IT'S IN FUCKING OREGON

I have lived in THIS HOUSE my entire life, my parents bought it before I was ever born, so just moving like, NEXT DOOR would result in an OMGPANICATTACK

but JESUS this place is GORGEOUS, it's like a DREAM JOB but FUCKING HELL

moving out is a big enough like LIFE CHANGE as it is let alone to the OTHER CORNER OF THE FUCKING COUNTRY

so I'm really torn, should I email these people and say look, I LOVE this job but I'm scared shitless and unsure of whether I really want it but could you give me more info kthanks? or should I like DECIDE if I'm ready for that kinda thing FIRST...thing is it could be GONE by then

FUCK, you guys, I am seriously stressing, I can't even EAT, I am so anti-change its not funny, and this is like MASSIVE change and I'm not even really CONSIDERING IT YET

I'm like CONSIDERING THE IDEA which is FREAKING ME OUT

but FUCK, there's like a TIME LIMIT on this shit, this job is not going to stay open FOREVER

FUCKINGHELL

*is seriously having a meltdown*

ETA: OMFG NOW I found one in South Carolina on a 5000 ACRE PRIVATE FREAKING COLONY/PLANTATION that includs medical/dental and 401k!!

*FACEEEEEDESKKKK*

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ETA 2:

I've thought about it, and I don't think I'm really ready to move...first off I'm still taking care of dad, and while HE has talked about moving back to MS where he's from, we're not in a position where that's possible right now

personally, I need to think about this, it's a big decision, let alone putting a time limit on myself because of a job that I may or may not even be offered

It's a good thing to think about though. I never meant or planned on living in FL my entire life, yes I'm born and raised here, and it'll always be home because of that, I'm really not a fan of the heat and tourists and cramped cities lol

but like I said, at least now I've HAD this freak out and can move on to legitimately THINKING about living elsewhere and can start looking at jobs out of state...but as for right now, I'm not making any decisions :)

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