I'm writing the folks back home to say "Hey, I... yeah I'm doing all right."
Eh. I suppose this might end up being longer than I'm intending. Oh well.
Several people have told me over and over "Be happy by yourself." And I have been for a while. There's just some times when I hate it.
(For those of you not following well: This is Anna complaining about being single.)
Well... complaining isn't the word for it I guess.
More like not comfortable with it any more.
Tired of it, etc. You get it.
It seems like almost everyone around me is either in a pretty long-term relationship, engaged, married, etc. ALMOST everyone, but it's still a lot of people. It's a little awkward sometimes being the 3rd, 5th, 7th wheel. And yeah, a lot of y'all have been through it before and are thinking to yourselves, "Oh shut up, Anna. It's not that bad."
No, it's not that bad.
Hence why I'm bothered by how much it bothers me.
I dunno, maybe I miss having someone special.
I do know I'm not looking for anything very serious, but it'd be nice to be able to have someone I can call or see and know that they're happy to be with me. Know that they prefer my company.
Yeah yeah, bitch whine moan, "that's what friends are for," etc.
It's different, and ya know it.
I'm not letting it get me down, and I'm not dwelling on it, but sometimes I just feel really alone.
And it seems to be a trend that every person I meet that I think might be worth the extra attention and effort proves me wrong right quick.
Maybe it's just a whole "baptism by fire" thing. Y'know, go through the gauntlet of assholes before finding one that's worth it. Who knows?
I'll shut up now. Just kinda felt like venting/explaining a bit.
Later loves.
Several people have told me over and over "Be happy by yourself." And I have been for a while. There's just some times when I hate it.
(For those of you not following well: This is Anna complaining about being single.)
Well... complaining isn't the word for it I guess.
More like not comfortable with it any more.
Tired of it, etc. You get it.
It seems like almost everyone around me is either in a pretty long-term relationship, engaged, married, etc. ALMOST everyone, but it's still a lot of people. It's a little awkward sometimes being the 3rd, 5th, 7th wheel. And yeah, a lot of y'all have been through it before and are thinking to yourselves, "Oh shut up, Anna. It's not that bad."
No, it's not that bad.
Hence why I'm bothered by how much it bothers me.
I dunno, maybe I miss having someone special.
I do know I'm not looking for anything very serious, but it'd be nice to be able to have someone I can call or see and know that they're happy to be with me. Know that they prefer my company.
Yeah yeah, bitch whine moan, "that's what friends are for," etc.
It's different, and ya know it.
I'm not letting it get me down, and I'm not dwelling on it, but sometimes I just feel really alone.
And it seems to be a trend that every person I meet that I think might be worth the extra attention and effort proves me wrong right quick.
Maybe it's just a whole "baptism by fire" thing. Y'know, go through the gauntlet of assholes before finding one that's worth it. Who knows?
I'll shut up now. Just kinda felt like venting/explaining a bit.
Later loves.