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[RL with Haruhi - Damage Control Part 1]

Jan 28, 2009 21:11

[As soon as the Doctor had told him about Haruhi's exploits at the wedding, Lockon had resolved to track her down. They clearly needed to talk, and she hadn't been to see him this whole time - well, he could walk unaided for short periods, now. He was going to go to her, if she wouldn't come to him ( Read more... )

this post will not be pretty, idk my bff godloli, damage control

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godisagirl January 28 2009, 22:01:01 UTC

[opens the door, she's just wearing an overlarge sweatshirt and her hair is tied up in case she needs to be sick again. And she's looking pretty worse for wear, her face is pale and there are dark circles under her eyes, and she's even skinnier than when he last saw her.]

...You.

[she steps backwards, her face contorting into a mixture of fear, pain, and anger]

What are you doing here?

lockon2urheart January 28 2009, 22:53:33 UTC

[Oh hell, she looks bad. And her heart-rending expression doesn't help. He can't stop his concerned frown, but he doesn't move forwards towards her. He keeps his body language as loose and nonthreatening as possible. From what the Doctor told him...he knew he had a lot of making up to do, and it wasn't going to be easy, and this is making that clear - but he's not going to back down, either.]

[His voice is back to normal, at least.] I had some stuff I needed to say. In person.

godisagirl January 28 2009, 22:56:25 UTC

[still backing away]

I never said I wanted to see you! I don't care what you have to say!

lockon2urheart January 28 2009, 23:07:01 UTC

[Still not moving forward, no matter how much he wants to. He owes her comfortable distance, at least, if that's what she wants right now.]

You can be angry with me. I don't blame you. Just...hear me out.

godisagirl January 28 2009, 23:42:58 UTC

You can't tell me what to do, not after you what you did!

[tears are starting to drip down her face]

lockon2urheart January 29 2009, 20:44:37 UTC

I won't make you. I know I don't have the right. I'm just asking you to listen to me, Haruhi, please.

godisagirl January 29 2009, 20:46:10 UTC

No! You betrayed me! I don't want to listen to you!

[moves her hands to cover her ears]

lockon2urheart February 2 2009, 21:57:06 UTC

[Damnit, so much for staying back - he really can't stop himself from stepping forward towards her, but he catches himself and looks at her with a pained expression.]

I'm going to apologise whether you want to hear me or not. I owe you that much.

godisagirl February 2 2009, 21:58:55 UTC

[doesn't seem to be hearing him at all and is moving into an hysterical fit]

Why did you have to come back?! Why did you have to say those things?! I was getting to be okay with you being gone! I was dealing with it!

lockon2urheart February 2 2009, 22:26:57 UTC

[The hysteria has his concern move into full-blown worry, and before he can really think it might be a bad idea he's moved closer. What she's saying hurts, but he can hope that it's being said in a fit of passion and that she didn't mean it, and at any rate he can deal with that when she's calmed down. He reaches out and touches her arm.]

I know that I owe being back at all to you and the Doctor. You're why I can be standing here right now, Haruhi, and believe me, I'm grateful. That's why I'm trying to apologise for what I said.

godisagirl February 10 2009, 00:21:03 UTC

[pulls away from his touch, biting her lip, she hates showing this much emotion, to him, to anyone. She turns on her heel and goes into her room, quickly closing the door and locking it, slumping down again against the frame as she tries to regain control]

lockon2urheart February 10 2009, 00:42:48 UTC

Haruhi-- [Damn, damn, damn. He follows her, but on his weak legs he's not nearly fast enough to catch up and ends up facing a locked door. He sighs. This was what he'd been afraid of, having to have this conversation through a door - not having the conversation at all hadnt even entered his mind. He was probably lucky it wasn't the TARDIS doors he was staring at.]

If you want me to go away and never darken your doorway again, Haruhi, I will. But not until I've said what I came here to say. Not just that I'm sorry, that's not all I'm here for.

godisagirl February 10 2009, 00:47:38 UTC

[bites her thumb, trying to fight for control over her body and emotions. No matter how much they were trying to make her break down, she wasn't going to let them.]

What then? What more could you ever say to me?

lockon2urheart February 10 2009, 01:06:02 UTC

[states at the door for a long moment.]

I know you're not her. Amy, I mean. You never have been a replacement for her, to me, and you never will be. And I wouldnt want you to be, either. You remind me of her, sometimes - but you're different, really different, and that's why I like you. When I - in the TARDIS, I was totally out of it, Haruhi. Hell - if I'd seen the Doctor I'd probably have thought he was my dad, that's how far gone I was. Anything I said then - under normal circumstances, I could never confuse you two like that. Ever.

godisagirl February 10 2009, 01:08:41 UTC

[it makes sense in her head, even if her heart is still torn up. She knew she wasn't a replacement but the fear, the fear had been there and taken over.]

...You still chose her over me, you wanted to avenge her over being with me.

lockon2urheart February 10 2009, 01:43:18 UTC

[He...didn't really have an easy answer to that. It was true, in a way, although it hadn't been a concious choice. He turned and leant slowly on the door himself, hesitating before talking over his shoulder.]

The people who attacked your papa. You remember them, don't you? Do you hate them, still?

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