hate
Hate can do all sorts of things. It can destroy lives, cloud judgemnets, make us do things we never thought we would ever do.
It is like a little cockroach that crawls in and nests inside you. Lays its eggs and then you have got an infestation that will take years to totally get rid of and a whole community wondering just how you could let such a thing happen.
...but even after all that there will always be one little fucker crawling around ready to start a new nest.
One of the things hate and a roach infestation has in common is denial. You want to blame everyone else for it, you want to scream at everyone for it, you'll do everything but take responsability for it. How dare that cheap ass pest control company be so shitty that you can't leave your cat food out without a billion little fuckers crawling all over it. How dare the world be so set against you, how dare the people around you be so self absorbed that they can't drop their lives to bow to your every whim.
Hate is an animal instinct...a survival impulse. Like depression is telling you that the enviroment around you isn't safe, hate is a warning. You're insticts are telling you that you are not in control of the enviroment. Nature will never get rid of hate the same way it will never let go of the cockroach. It has it's purpose, but not in the world we live in. The world we (I use that word loosely) built was is not perfect. The human world exist the way it does because we WILLED it together. We overcame most of our animal instincts, like Tyr with his hand in Fenris's mouth. We sacraficed to chain down the beast. Not KILL it, just to keep something under control that we know we cannot kill.......
...because we still need it.
So.....
Keep your temper in check, stay loose, bend when life stays rigid and stay rigid when life bends. I didn't write this to cure all the hate in the world, just to help someone out there (no clue who) learn from my mistakes.
Note that the L word was never mentioned.
It is like a little cockroach that crawls in and nests inside you. Lays its eggs and then you have got an infestation that will take years to totally get rid of and a whole community wondering just how you could let such a thing happen.
...but even after all that there will always be one little fucker crawling around ready to start a new nest.
One of the things hate and a roach infestation has in common is denial. You want to blame everyone else for it, you want to scream at everyone for it, you'll do everything but take responsability for it. How dare that cheap ass pest control company be so shitty that you can't leave your cat food out without a billion little fuckers crawling all over it. How dare the world be so set against you, how dare the people around you be so self absorbed that they can't drop their lives to bow to your every whim.
Hate is an animal instinct...a survival impulse. Like depression is telling you that the enviroment around you isn't safe, hate is a warning. You're insticts are telling you that you are not in control of the enviroment. Nature will never get rid of hate the same way it will never let go of the cockroach. It has it's purpose, but not in the world we live in. The world we (I use that word loosely) built was is not perfect. The human world exist the way it does because we WILLED it together. We overcame most of our animal instincts, like Tyr with his hand in Fenris's mouth. We sacraficed to chain down the beast. Not KILL it, just to keep something under control that we know we cannot kill.......
...because we still need it.
So.....
Keep your temper in check, stay loose, bend when life stays rigid and stay rigid when life bends. I didn't write this to cure all the hate in the world, just to help someone out there (no clue who) learn from my mistakes.
Note that the L word was never mentioned.