i wanna hate you so bad
this is my goal:
go to school and not let you effect my everyday the way that you do,
study study study super hardcore for me AP tests
(so i'm not so tempted to think of you),
finish my freaking english class by the end of this week,
which will add to me being busy,
which will take from me thinking about you.
i'm going to stay mad at you until may 29.
that way, when you don't hug me at graduation,
it won't suck.
and when you make no effort to keep me in your life after graduation,
it won't tear me apart.
then this summer,
i'm going to go to california,
and im going to have fun.
and i'm going to work.
and when you call me and ruin what i've worked so hard for just to cry to me,
i'll say fuck you.
as of last week,
i've told you EVERYTHING that has needed to be said.
maybe not all at once,
and most def not all over the phone,
because lord knows i can't keep you on the phone long enough when i start talking about something i care about.
but hey,
you've read it all, and you've replied to it all.
i'm sorry it's come to this.
i'm sorry it's taken me so long to even realize this.
i'm sorry you don't know what you have right under your nose.
i'm sorry you've taken me for granted far too many times.
go to school and not let you effect my everyday the way that you do,
study study study super hardcore for me AP tests
(so i'm not so tempted to think of you),
finish my freaking english class by the end of this week,
which will add to me being busy,
which will take from me thinking about you.
i'm going to stay mad at you until may 29.
that way, when you don't hug me at graduation,
it won't suck.
and when you make no effort to keep me in your life after graduation,
it won't tear me apart.
then this summer,
i'm going to go to california,
and im going to have fun.
and i'm going to work.
and when you call me and ruin what i've worked so hard for just to cry to me,
i'll say fuck you.
as of last week,
i've told you EVERYTHING that has needed to be said.
maybe not all at once,
and most def not all over the phone,
because lord knows i can't keep you on the phone long enough when i start talking about something i care about.
but hey,
you've read it all, and you've replied to it all.
i'm sorry it's come to this.
i'm sorry it's taken me so long to even realize this.
i'm sorry you don't know what you have right under your nose.
i'm sorry you've taken me for granted far too many times.