Ironic
Have you ever noticed that you can't truely remember how you felt christmas morning when you were a kid, or getting up and going to school to see a crush or even the anticipation of going on a vacation. You can't remember exactly how your heart felt.
Yet, when you are in pain. true utter misery, you will never forget exactly how you felt. How you felt when your heart hurt so badly you thought it may stop. You'll never forget when your lungs felt like they couldn't take in anymore air. The shock
of how fast and hard it hit yet, how long it has taken to subside.
This is the pain that still hasn't left my heart, and im convinced won't. When I was at the library just thinking its a usual day. I check my facebook and have an email from Kassi. Before I even looked at the subject I assumed it was a mass email seeing how we havent really spoke since late high school.
hey i know we haven't talked in a while but you've always kept in touch better than me at least and im sorry...
when i heard about kenny you were the first person i thought of. i truely hope you are doing alright, i know if i were you i'd be a mess so i just wanted to let you know that im home (in sebastian) until tuesday and i'll be back again on sunday for the rest of decemeber. If you need an escape, let me know or maybe me you kacie ash and chelsea can all do lunch or something. chin up.
kass
So yesterday was his 23rd Birthday and I am shocked how well I did, his mom is in Aussy and emailed me when she got there. Taking it day by day.
On a lighter note I talked to Clay all day today via text message. It was nice to catch up. I'm headed to Puerto rico in less than 3 weeks and can't wait. Moving to Melbourne in about 5 weeks. You always know you'll have to grow up. I just can't believe it's here already...
This felt good
Yet, when you are in pain. true utter misery, you will never forget exactly how you felt. How you felt when your heart hurt so badly you thought it may stop. You'll never forget when your lungs felt like they couldn't take in anymore air. The shock
of how fast and hard it hit yet, how long it has taken to subside.
This is the pain that still hasn't left my heart, and im convinced won't. When I was at the library just thinking its a usual day. I check my facebook and have an email from Kassi. Before I even looked at the subject I assumed it was a mass email seeing how we havent really spoke since late high school.
hey i know we haven't talked in a while but you've always kept in touch better than me at least and im sorry...
when i heard about kenny you were the first person i thought of. i truely hope you are doing alright, i know if i were you i'd be a mess so i just wanted to let you know that im home (in sebastian) until tuesday and i'll be back again on sunday for the rest of decemeber. If you need an escape, let me know or maybe me you kacie ash and chelsea can all do lunch or something. chin up.
kass
So yesterday was his 23rd Birthday and I am shocked how well I did, his mom is in Aussy and emailed me when she got there. Taking it day by day.
On a lighter note I talked to Clay all day today via text message. It was nice to catch up. I'm headed to Puerto rico in less than 3 weeks and can't wait. Moving to Melbourne in about 5 weeks. You always know you'll have to grow up. I just can't believe it's here already...
This felt good