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hey
everyone,,,,,,,,, ok this is my journal so i will write what i want. im
sad. really really sad. i havent talked to a particular person in four
days. i miss them terribley. i feel not talking to them has mde me fall
in love with them more... isnt that wierd. i hate this feeling. and
what is even wierder....... i look at my fone and i feel like talking
but when i scroll down my numbers, i have no one to call. every one has
there own lives and i feel like if im not a part of any of them. i know
the world doesnt revolve around me, but i sumtimes feel if im not even
a part of it..... i feel like shit right now. its 12 39 am and im still
awake. not tired not sleepy not happy. its not that im home sick cause
frankly i feel would feel the same way. this is the first time that i
actually right how i am feeling and to say a truth if feels pretty
good. not to be a bitch, i would like no one to comment on this (not
like anyone would) i dont feel like hearing it. i really want to cry. i
want to be loved! i want to be in LOVE....... i miss ilua. AHHHHHH you
see everytime i get like this i miss him thank God i dont ahve
reception in this room beacuse i would really call him right now. i
hate my life right
now............................................................no i
lied, i hate my feelings right now. i want to smoke out. o ive took up
smoking......... cigarettes, its not to feel cool its just that im so
bored, and the few moments it takes to finish a 120 is the few moments
that give me pleasure..... at this rate
i............................................i dunno, i feel reallly
ugly right now. God SaVe MEEEEE!!!!!!!!