exile
i began to nurture some doubt about going back to cz. i don't know if i can be that cold ever again. i was contrasting blasted gray landscapes of dilapidated concrete with the soft green life exploding from my gardenings. the choice seems clear. but real life choices are never clear. just when i needed it, direction came to me in the form of a boy in a home-knitted blue pully. his face appeared to me very suddenly one afternoon. it felt like when i was small and a grown up twisted my shoulders in the correct direction i should be facing then kneed me in the back.
good thing too seeing how i've been working toward that for the past year and three months. i know where i'm going.
overnight it seemed like everything became too grown for the peat moss cells they were growing in. so no time to bullshit with the garden prep. i had to get down to business quick like. everyone is in the ground and doing well. i'm fascinated with the strawberries (who have been in the ground for months...someone lied to me and told me they were winter crop for our zone... LIES!!!). i learned the hard way not to pluck the dying looking flowers out too soon. rather, the main vagina part of the flower IS the strawberry. who knew?! there were just no bees to hump them. now the sexy bees are back and the petals are falling away and no doubt we'll have about eight billion fresh strawberries in three weeks time. squash (my favorite veg of all) has just sprouted that middle fuck you finger leaf. must study in detail as i desperately want to grow them indoors in prague. the strang beans are a rather 'jack and the beanstalk' situation. they have ornate wooden stakes to grow up and strings in between if they feel like growing taller. tomatoes will not be commented upon due to their bitchiness with me in the past.
i babysat my nephews again last night. a dispute arose concerning who was the rightful owner of a bakugon...backagon?...who knows. i felt it appropriate to explain karma to them both. no shit, the little one looked at me and said and i quote "you're really freaking me out man." after that, the dispute was settled without a single time-out.
good thing too seeing how i've been working toward that for the past year and three months. i know where i'm going.
overnight it seemed like everything became too grown for the peat moss cells they were growing in. so no time to bullshit with the garden prep. i had to get down to business quick like. everyone is in the ground and doing well. i'm fascinated with the strawberries (who have been in the ground for months...someone lied to me and told me they were winter crop for our zone... LIES!!!). i learned the hard way not to pluck the dying looking flowers out too soon. rather, the main vagina part of the flower IS the strawberry. who knew?! there were just no bees to hump them. now the sexy bees are back and the petals are falling away and no doubt we'll have about eight billion fresh strawberries in three weeks time. squash (my favorite veg of all) has just sprouted that middle fuck you finger leaf. must study in detail as i desperately want to grow them indoors in prague. the strang beans are a rather 'jack and the beanstalk' situation. they have ornate wooden stakes to grow up and strings in between if they feel like growing taller. tomatoes will not be commented upon due to their bitchiness with me in the past.
i babysat my nephews again last night. a dispute arose concerning who was the rightful owner of a bakugon...backagon?...who knows. i felt it appropriate to explain karma to them both. no shit, the little one looked at me and said and i quote "you're really freaking me out man." after that, the dispute was settled without a single time-out.