decisons decsions...
So my life now revolves around my college decision...its sort of a weird month when im trying to discover myself and prioritize my whole life. Its weird, its like i have to put down my passions on paper - i like living things by the moment, i decide if i like something depending on how i feel that day, i dont know if i can make a college decision by judging how i'll feel in the future. I think that i made some progress though...im just hoping that its not for the wrong reasons. It's down to MIT or Stanford. Its sad to say, and i did want to go to princeton and live like a princess...but, i liked MIT better. So now, its between running away to the other side of the country and playing tennis with passion in the warmth of the california sun as I study, or staying on this side with connections to my existing group of friends, and studying in a hard-core environment with kick ass pple, playing a little tennis, and freezing my ass off. Its my childhood dream to go to stanford, but MIT is the shit...its just so hard to say no to these schools. There are times when i re-consider U-Penn...i mean i had an AMAZING time there too....fuck- im just so screwed. Apart from my big decision, i have my IB tests...and they are coming FAST...while my studying = zero. Im fucked, i gotta take out my old math notes, then english doesnt really matter, but i gotta start reading that history packet, not to mention I have AP physics the same day as enlgish...ahhh...so yea, i gotta get started. I wont be in contact with reality for a while ... life is sort of surreal rite now, but i kinda like being apart from the world. ... c'est la vie ...