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[locashmotoman]

so im just sitting here listening to some music and i thought that i would write in this thing you call a journal. so i should have left this place that im in a day ago but instead i had to stay and work a couple of more days because we didnt get anybody to come and relieve me yet. it kinda sucks but what the fuck am i going to do about it? huh? well i should be coming home here in a couple of day but you know i told everybody there once before and it didnt turn out that way so im so scared to get karen's hopes up and let her down yet once again. i hate that i cannot be there for her when she goes through troubles in her life. it took me so long to just tell her and others how i felt about her and of course me being the dumbass i am i waited until i was ten thousand miles away so how can anybody expect what others would do about that?. well anyways we got a new roomate here so for the last days that i am here i have to live with three other guys. it kinda sucks but my first two roomates are here and they are pretty kool kats. well i will finally be happy when i get back to Bahrain. i miss it there alot. but on the bad side ive been away from there for alost seven months and i fell as if i wont know anybody there anymore. ahhhh. back to being the new guy. i hated that shit before. you know when you first get there and everybody is so nice trying to make you feel right. i wish that when i get back there nobody will talk to me or even if they do to be real not fake for the first couple of week thinking that i just got there from bootcamp and shit. so i callled my mom the other day and we talkied on the phone for a hella long time. like and hour and a half. wierd huh? well i told her some things that i wished i hadnt but i guess its to late for all that huh? i told her kinda how i broke my arm and i dont know if it was the right thing because i shouldnt have told her over the phone and now i feel kinda bad. so im listening to this song "Tourniquet" and i like it mucho. i havent listend to Evanescence in a long time and she is such a great singer. i have just been listening to the cd fallen foe like three hours now and i love it. also ive listen to the band Flogging Molly lately and they are bringing back so many memeories of high school. ahh its great i fucking loved high school i just wish that i stayed there longer. like a super senior like some other people i know. hahahha. no i dont i dont want to be like those people. damn i think that ive written alot right now. wow yeah thats alot. well i will finish now because i wont have anything to write tomorrow if i dont stop.
i love you karen and i promise to come home and take you away with me shortly. just dont forget about me.
to all others have a great Ramadan. for the king is dead. ha and the whole fourty day honoring his body is for the birds.-- i guess none of you understand that but its ok cause i do.
well goodbye. and if i dont see you good afternoon, goodevening, and goodnight. haha
i love you karen---- bye. for now.
-----terry blood-----