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Im finally back from fucking Tennessee!!! I never thought I would be so happy to be back in crappy St.Clair Shores. It sucked so bad. No one will ever know. I was stuck in the middle of no where, and when I say that, I am so dead ass serious. Town was like 15 minutes away and all that was there was every fast food restaurant you could think of, a Walmart, and a movie theater that played 3 movies. All the kids hung out al Walmart or at the movie place. It just sucked. Then I was all happy I was coming home and my mom decides to tell me as Im about to leave to come home, that I have to stay at my aunt Stephs house for the nite. I was super pissed, but luckily Krystal came to pick me up in her new car.
I was so excited to come home and to see my mom and when I finally get home it wasnt even a big deal to her. To anyone actually, except for Krystal and Jennifer. Then when I was at my aunt Stpehs house in Garden City she comes up with this idea that I should move in with her for a semester and go back to school. Its not like high school, its like nite school but during the day and its free. So Im really thinking about it, its just that its so far away and I wouldnt see my friends much and I know that if I move there Dave and I would be done for good. I dont know if thats a good thing or not at the moment. Anyway though. My aunt said she would talk to my parents and see if maybe they could help me out a lil bit and like pay for a month of car insurance, and they wont do it. They keep saying how much they want me to get my life together and blah blah blah, but they dont want to help me out. They can pay for tons of shit for my brother when I ask for a little help just so I can go back to school, I get completely shut down with no hesitation. It gets me really upset. I think that might have a lot to do with whats been wrong with me today. Then just thinking about how I dont really have anyone anymore, I mean yeah I have Krystal and Jennifer, but both of them have a lot on their plate right now, and its not like I can exactly talk to Dave cus I dont really think he will understand. I also feel like Im gonna lose Krystal soon now that she moved in with Amanda and she has Warren. I dont know if I will be hanging out at her house a lot cus I dont really know if I like the people she moved in with. Jennifer is a whole other story. I lost her 7 months ago. Everything is just crappy right now. Then seeing Krystal with Warren all day makes me want that. I mean dont get me wrong I love Dave to death, I just want him to actually make a commitment. I personally dont think thats a lot to ask since we have been seeing each other on and off for a year. I dunno what to do anymore.
Well I think thats about it for the nite, I think Im just gonna go to bed and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I was so excited to come home and to see my mom and when I finally get home it wasnt even a big deal to her. To anyone actually, except for Krystal and Jennifer. Then when I was at my aunt Stpehs house in Garden City she comes up with this idea that I should move in with her for a semester and go back to school. Its not like high school, its like nite school but during the day and its free. So Im really thinking about it, its just that its so far away and I wouldnt see my friends much and I know that if I move there Dave and I would be done for good. I dont know if thats a good thing or not at the moment. Anyway though. My aunt said she would talk to my parents and see if maybe they could help me out a lil bit and like pay for a month of car insurance, and they wont do it. They keep saying how much they want me to get my life together and blah blah blah, but they dont want to help me out. They can pay for tons of shit for my brother when I ask for a little help just so I can go back to school, I get completely shut down with no hesitation. It gets me really upset. I think that might have a lot to do with whats been wrong with me today. Then just thinking about how I dont really have anyone anymore, I mean yeah I have Krystal and Jennifer, but both of them have a lot on their plate right now, and its not like I can exactly talk to Dave cus I dont really think he will understand. I also feel like Im gonna lose Krystal soon now that she moved in with Amanda and she has Warren. I dont know if I will be hanging out at her house a lot cus I dont really know if I like the people she moved in with. Jennifer is a whole other story. I lost her 7 months ago. Everything is just crappy right now. Then seeing Krystal with Warren all day makes me want that. I mean dont get me wrong I love Dave to death, I just want him to actually make a commitment. I personally dont think thats a lot to ask since we have been seeing each other on and off for a year. I dunno what to do anymore.
Well I think thats about it for the nite, I think Im just gonna go to bed and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.