a trip through live journal time. history in the making.
Let's take a travel through time through the old livejournal of Ms.Stephens.
let's see what i was posting ONE year ago, shall we?
7:16p
as of the moment, i'm sitting in a BGSU computer lab while michael's in class for a little bit. it's his 21st birthday today so i drove down to spend it with him. him and i are kind of in a between stages bind right now. basically, we aren't together, it's a friends thing. maybe for the moment, maybe for a long time, maybe it'll eventually change, or it may not at all. i'm just trying to find out what i'm supposed to be doing-- and right now a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship isn't the best idea. him& i though-- we know eachother so incredibly well that we can actually do this. i'm thankful to have a person like that in my life. he bought a small bottle of wine today from meijer to celebrate the fact that he can buy alcohol. the funny thing is, though, he doesn't even drink. i think he did it for the sole purpose of the power he has now. a power he won't ever abuse! tonight we will probably have a glass each to enjoy it rather than just doing it for the purpose of getting "silly."
one day i will figure out why i'm so strange.
christmas is coming up (!!!) and i'm trying to get as excited as i can about it. DID ANYONE SEE DOWNTOWN ROCHESTER YET? IT'S A XMAS LIGHTS EXPLOSION! i'm the person who develops a grin so wide from that stuff that you'd think i'd permanently keep my face that way. i turned on the christmas music on 100.3 and tried to think about the holidays.
one day i will figure out why i am so strange. until then, i'll WAcccccKKKKKOOOO IT UP!!#@!
let's see what i was posting TWO years ago, shall we?
11:44a
quotable quote of the week:
"See, Beckee, that's the reason why I hate perfume. It smells like a girl just took some raspberry juice and poured it all over her, or wait-- took some of this sorbet and smeared it all over her clothing."
-Tobias Walker.
In other news, this sentence came out of my Introduction to Business textbook:
"For reasons that are explored in more detail in Chapter 2, in country after country throughout Eastern Europe and eventually in the Soviet Union itself, Communist governments collapsed like the shells of rotten eggs."
let's see what i was posting THREE years ago, shall we?
12:45p
i'm pretty sure that a blanket made by your best friend is one of the most meaningful gifts to receive. thanks, sayum. i've been with it all day.
do you ever get to have those moments when you listen to music and watch the scenery, with wherever you are and the music's moment bleeds into the scenery? every light that blinks or tree that sways is perfectly in sync with the music. this has been a frequent occurence lately and it makes my heart feel weightless. i think i love it more than anything.
i also believe that the best way to refute a problem is always with kindness.
i think that the most therapeutic thing when something happens towards my disadvantage is to give and add to other people around me. when i make others better, it makes me better. i know i feel like this all the time, it's just more promintently in my thoughts when dissapointment happens.
sigh.
let's see what i was posting FOUR years ago, shall we?
8:31p
Last night Matt came home.
It was pretty sweet. I rejoyced and we had a great time all decorating the christmas tree. Hurray for family.
I also busted out a grand total of ninety-six Chocolate Bourbon Balls for my mother and her various cookie exchanges. Might I say that they are both beautiful and delicious. I was proud of such an accomplishment. It took quite some time, until around seven o'clock from the time I got home.
Yesturday was a good day.
Today in Math, I came upon a broad yet firm realization. I'm tired of always trying with certain people. I'm not going to try more than the other one does anymore. I'm willing to have amazing friendships with people, I am. But when I waste energy on people who don't even care, what's the point? There's been a select few people who have been there for me lately, and those ones I cherish. I may sound like a "bitch," "sad," or even "attention-ridden," but I really honestly don't care. I am more than willing to make an incredible friendship with people. I'll always be there for you if you ever need to talk or just vent. But, I need you there as well. Therefore, I do believe I may just be losing some people emotionally. I'm content with my decision, though, and I know it's a better step than I realize.
let's see what i was doing FIVE years ago, shall we?
11:30p - To know that you feel the same, as I do, is a Three-fold utopian dream...
There really isn't a lot to say about things right now. I do love life, and if I keep on saying day to day about how great everything is it will become quite boring.
Sunday: Hung out with The J. :) 7 Months. Bliss.
Monday: Ummm.. a regular day. Actually it was a little boring. I was sick. Ugh.
Tuesday: Yet another regular day. Went to guitar. Hell yah. I love it. I learned "Jingle Bells." I swear to god, me and Amanda have way too much fun with our guitar teacher! Then Mom's homemade spaghetti and meatballs... mmmmmmmmm....
Today: I hung out with Rj before school. That was the greatest late start I've ever had. We watched Harry Potter! And he put me in a good mood for the rest of the day. At 10 my mom got me and I went to the Ortho. Sanding between teeth.... (*cringe*). Then we went to Subway. And that was fun. I came back and in 3rd hour i felt like we were in elementary school again, we were in a group and we did a diaroma thing with crafts. that was the shit.:) Then I came home and took a 2 mile walk with my mom. And then I went to watch Sam sing. She's incredible. Totally blew me away. And all the other girls who sung. What a good day.
my god. i don't even remember writing half of these. it's so insane what a little bit of time can do to your insides and your brain.
let's see what i was posting ONE year ago, shall we?
7:16p
as of the moment, i'm sitting in a BGSU computer lab while michael's in class for a little bit. it's his 21st birthday today so i drove down to spend it with him. him and i are kind of in a between stages bind right now. basically, we aren't together, it's a friends thing. maybe for the moment, maybe for a long time, maybe it'll eventually change, or it may not at all. i'm just trying to find out what i'm supposed to be doing-- and right now a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship isn't the best idea. him& i though-- we know eachother so incredibly well that we can actually do this. i'm thankful to have a person like that in my life. he bought a small bottle of wine today from meijer to celebrate the fact that he can buy alcohol. the funny thing is, though, he doesn't even drink. i think he did it for the sole purpose of the power he has now. a power he won't ever abuse! tonight we will probably have a glass each to enjoy it rather than just doing it for the purpose of getting "silly."
one day i will figure out why i'm so strange.
christmas is coming up (!!!) and i'm trying to get as excited as i can about it. DID ANYONE SEE DOWNTOWN ROCHESTER YET? IT'S A XMAS LIGHTS EXPLOSION! i'm the person who develops a grin so wide from that stuff that you'd think i'd permanently keep my face that way. i turned on the christmas music on 100.3 and tried to think about the holidays.
one day i will figure out why i am so strange. until then, i'll WAcccccKKKKKOOOO IT UP!!#@!
let's see what i was posting TWO years ago, shall we?
11:44a
quotable quote of the week:
"See, Beckee, that's the reason why I hate perfume. It smells like a girl just took some raspberry juice and poured it all over her, or wait-- took some of this sorbet and smeared it all over her clothing."
-Tobias Walker.
In other news, this sentence came out of my Introduction to Business textbook:
"For reasons that are explored in more detail in Chapter 2, in country after country throughout Eastern Europe and eventually in the Soviet Union itself, Communist governments collapsed like the shells of rotten eggs."
let's see what i was posting THREE years ago, shall we?
12:45p
i'm pretty sure that a blanket made by your best friend is one of the most meaningful gifts to receive. thanks, sayum. i've been with it all day.
do you ever get to have those moments when you listen to music and watch the scenery, with wherever you are and the music's moment bleeds into the scenery? every light that blinks or tree that sways is perfectly in sync with the music. this has been a frequent occurence lately and it makes my heart feel weightless. i think i love it more than anything.
i also believe that the best way to refute a problem is always with kindness.
i think that the most therapeutic thing when something happens towards my disadvantage is to give and add to other people around me. when i make others better, it makes me better. i know i feel like this all the time, it's just more promintently in my thoughts when dissapointment happens.
sigh.
let's see what i was posting FOUR years ago, shall we?
8:31p
Last night Matt came home.
It was pretty sweet. I rejoyced and we had a great time all decorating the christmas tree. Hurray for family.
I also busted out a grand total of ninety-six Chocolate Bourbon Balls for my mother and her various cookie exchanges. Might I say that they are both beautiful and delicious. I was proud of such an accomplishment. It took quite some time, until around seven o'clock from the time I got home.
Yesturday was a good day.
Today in Math, I came upon a broad yet firm realization. I'm tired of always trying with certain people. I'm not going to try more than the other one does anymore. I'm willing to have amazing friendships with people, I am. But when I waste energy on people who don't even care, what's the point? There's been a select few people who have been there for me lately, and those ones I cherish. I may sound like a "bitch," "sad," or even "attention-ridden," but I really honestly don't care. I am more than willing to make an incredible friendship with people. I'll always be there for you if you ever need to talk or just vent. But, I need you there as well. Therefore, I do believe I may just be losing some people emotionally. I'm content with my decision, though, and I know it's a better step than I realize.
let's see what i was doing FIVE years ago, shall we?
11:30p - To know that you feel the same, as I do, is a Three-fold utopian dream...
There really isn't a lot to say about things right now. I do love life, and if I keep on saying day to day about how great everything is it will become quite boring.
Sunday: Hung out with The J. :) 7 Months. Bliss.
Monday: Ummm.. a regular day. Actually it was a little boring. I was sick. Ugh.
Tuesday: Yet another regular day. Went to guitar. Hell yah. I love it. I learned "Jingle Bells." I swear to god, me and Amanda have way too much fun with our guitar teacher! Then Mom's homemade spaghetti and meatballs... mmmmmmmmm....
Today: I hung out with Rj before school. That was the greatest late start I've ever had. We watched Harry Potter! And he put me in a good mood for the rest of the day. At 10 my mom got me and I went to the Ortho. Sanding between teeth.... (*cringe*). Then we went to Subway. And that was fun. I came back and in 3rd hour i felt like we were in elementary school again, we were in a group and we did a diaroma thing with crafts. that was the shit.:) Then I came home and took a 2 mile walk with my mom. And then I went to watch Sam sing. She's incredible. Totally blew me away. And all the other girls who sung. What a good day.
my god. i don't even remember writing half of these. it's so insane what a little bit of time can do to your insides and your brain.