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i'm going to california tomorrow for 10 days with sayum.
here's to a trip that hopefully will help set my mind straight. everyone has been telling me that it's going to be life-changing. I don't know if it's going to be that extreme, but I hope I have a good time.
Life is soo crazy. One minute you think your future is clear and well-planned out, and all it takes is a few alternating decisions to change it again. Is it strange that I find comfort in a cloudy future? I always thought that I was odd for feeling that way, but now I don't. Cloudy futures are the most exciting.
I want to do so many things that don't fit into the grand scheme of my life that I'll do regardless. I'll make a few messes along the way that will eventually be cleaned up without me (and look better than they ever did with me even there). I'll meet people that will only be around for a short amount of time in my life, I'll reunite with old friends, and keep ones around my whole life.
Sometimes I think I have life sooo figured out, then I stop and say "oh, hellllll no. you're still nineteen. you haven't a clue." i find comfort in not having a clue. i feel comfort in knowing that the Big Guy Upstairs is reviewing any sort of long term plans I have for myself and laughing hysterically. I know eventually I'll laugh too.
Right now? Right now I'm having fun. Right now I'm exploring the single life, taking dates one at a time, and appreciating different personalities. Right now I'm working on my judgement calls. Right now I'm-- well-- I guess you could say I'm trying to figure out what trade makes me happiest and trying to apply that to a career.
I'm so excited for this summer. I'm excited because I have no idea what I'll be doing. Where will I be? Who will I be with? What in the hell will I be doing?
who cares! i'm going to have a great time.
i'm so crazy. i'm so, so crazy. and i love it.
here's to a trip that hopefully will help set my mind straight. everyone has been telling me that it's going to be life-changing. I don't know if it's going to be that extreme, but I hope I have a good time.
Life is soo crazy. One minute you think your future is clear and well-planned out, and all it takes is a few alternating decisions to change it again. Is it strange that I find comfort in a cloudy future? I always thought that I was odd for feeling that way, but now I don't. Cloudy futures are the most exciting.
I want to do so many things that don't fit into the grand scheme of my life that I'll do regardless. I'll make a few messes along the way that will eventually be cleaned up without me (and look better than they ever did with me even there). I'll meet people that will only be around for a short amount of time in my life, I'll reunite with old friends, and keep ones around my whole life.
Sometimes I think I have life sooo figured out, then I stop and say "oh, hellllll no. you're still nineteen. you haven't a clue." i find comfort in not having a clue. i feel comfort in knowing that the Big Guy Upstairs is reviewing any sort of long term plans I have for myself and laughing hysterically. I know eventually I'll laugh too.
Right now? Right now I'm having fun. Right now I'm exploring the single life, taking dates one at a time, and appreciating different personalities. Right now I'm working on my judgement calls. Right now I'm-- well-- I guess you could say I'm trying to figure out what trade makes me happiest and trying to apply that to a career.
I'm so excited for this summer. I'm excited because I have no idea what I'll be doing. Where will I be? Who will I be with? What in the hell will I be doing?
who cares! i'm going to have a great time.
i'm so crazy. i'm so, so crazy. and i love it.