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no writing tonite. just thoughts within myself.
thoughts that makes me heafty sad. dont help with this song. the song that could bring me from extatic to happily sad in one run through.
i dont know what im doing with myself now-a-days. i stupidly lost my job. but in a way im happy i did. i either got out or i guess id ahve been stuck there for a long time with no initionitve to get a new job. i also iwsh i coudl spell
i watched a few eppisodes of soemthings tonite i found on youtube. no idea what its called but i watched it anyway... then relised i hate being single. i just wnt someone there to lie iwth. to ahve a giggle with and to hold. i really aint what people see me as up toon and only a tiny about of people even know the real me. i just wont show him untill they need to see it or have earned the right to see me. its not that i hide myself or anyfin. there's just another side of me for me to know. my "small person" the thing that sorts everything out and helps with ur problems. mine comes out alot and helps others an not myself cause i dont ahve many problems. i seem to sort everything out in a few mins for myself
i dont even know why im writing this on here.... suppose i wanna get it oot my heed and something like that.
i dont understand how people dont see the person inside me everyday. the "real" me. the one who is scared of everything and has no confidence. the one who would rather talk than fight.
i really wanna get wasted right now so ill sleep. cause i know i wont be able to tonite. i mean its pretty much 3 am and im awake. i wish i was asleep with no thoughts to bring me down. christ im pathetic.
ya know im just gonna stop now before i hate ymself even more.
Goalds -
find a nice girl and try to do the right thing.
Stop all the random pish and keep myself a bit mare quiet
Let the emotion come out maybe?
fuck off me sleep. or at least try too
thoughts that makes me heafty sad. dont help with this song. the song that could bring me from extatic to happily sad in one run through.
i dont know what im doing with myself now-a-days. i stupidly lost my job. but in a way im happy i did. i either got out or i guess id ahve been stuck there for a long time with no initionitve to get a new job. i also iwsh i coudl spell
i watched a few eppisodes of soemthings tonite i found on youtube. no idea what its called but i watched it anyway... then relised i hate being single. i just wnt someone there to lie iwth. to ahve a giggle with and to hold. i really aint what people see me as up toon and only a tiny about of people even know the real me. i just wont show him untill they need to see it or have earned the right to see me. its not that i hide myself or anyfin. there's just another side of me for me to know. my "small person" the thing that sorts everything out and helps with ur problems. mine comes out alot and helps others an not myself cause i dont ahve many problems. i seem to sort everything out in a few mins for myself
i dont even know why im writing this on here.... suppose i wanna get it oot my heed and something like that.
i dont understand how people dont see the person inside me everyday. the "real" me. the one who is scared of everything and has no confidence. the one who would rather talk than fight.
i really wanna get wasted right now so ill sleep. cause i know i wont be able to tonite. i mean its pretty much 3 am and im awake. i wish i was asleep with no thoughts to bring me down. christ im pathetic.
ya know im just gonna stop now before i hate ymself even more.
Goalds -
find a nice girl and try to do the right thing.
Stop all the random pish and keep myself a bit mare quiet
Let the emotion come out maybe?
fuck off me sleep. or at least try too