Death of a heart in love with you
I wish I had a different star, I wish I had a different silhouette
Today, as with everyday of any half term, I was bored shitless. I mean what the hell am I supposed to do with all this freeking spare time? I dont have a life...my life is going to bed, getting up to go to school, school, going to bed.
You decrease me, you seclude me, aggravate me and you made me, What I am today
My family are pissing me off, they either hate on me or treat me like Im five...a little respect wouldnt go a miss. My brother had left the computer on and was making tea with Mum so I sat down to do something and he went crazy saying he was still on it, so I got off and when I came down half an hour later he hadnt even used it...rrrrrrrr
I wish we could communicate, Despite the fact you'd hate me anyway
I feel so alone sometimes, its like I dont have anyone, like right now Im sat on my pc, my family are in the other room laughing and joking and not one person I have on my msn is talking to me, none of my friends have called me since the end of school and no one ever emails me. I know some of my friends care but they dont go out of their way to show me.
You seduce me, you abuse me, you frustate me and amaze me, What is wrong with me?
I was so freeking pissed off last night. I sat up till 11.45pm, I was falling asleep cause Ive been up late every night for weeks, I just sat on the pc getting madder and madder, getting dizzy and going crazy. I just hate myself so dam much, its wierd, I want to die just because death would be better than life. Its not that I REALLY hate life and Im totally miserable, its just life is boringly shit...I want an adventure now...not in ten years...or fifteen...now.
I wish that I could trade these eyes, Because now I only despise my own lies