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i have to be the most naive most idiotic person i know.
things just don't get through to me, and it soo retarded because as a virgo i should be able to analyze things well... and i can't. i don't see the truth ever, i have too much faith in ppl. and i'm always fucked at the end of the story.
i really can't accept what has happened as the truth, i mean, i just can't believe that it would happen to me. and yet... i think it did. i keep telling myself not to listen to my friends, because things get distorted as they go down the line, and yet... i don't think i have another choice. i think he's just lying to me so as to not hurt me.
i wish i could know whether it is a lie or not. i wish i could know if he meant all the things he said. i wish i could be happy without needing to know any of this...
things just don't get through to me, and it soo retarded because as a virgo i should be able to analyze things well... and i can't. i don't see the truth ever, i have too much faith in ppl. and i'm always fucked at the end of the story.
i really can't accept what has happened as the truth, i mean, i just can't believe that it would happen to me. and yet... i think it did. i keep telling myself not to listen to my friends, because things get distorted as they go down the line, and yet... i don't think i have another choice. i think he's just lying to me so as to not hurt me.
i wish i could know whether it is a lie or not. i wish i could know if he meant all the things he said. i wish i could be happy without needing to know any of this...