26 dollars in my hand
i decided to stop caring about the things that hurt my feelings.
lately i have been realizing that feelings are just feelings and if i keep feeling and not thinking then life is always going to suck, and feelings mean nothing. i am constantly thinking real hard into things but when i feel something i cant think logically, i only feel that feeling, and when i feel it i feel it a lot. and before i trusted my feelings but now i know you can not do that!
also, i got tired of hating people, it was too much work, so i thought good things about people and found its a lot easier to just be nice. it feels so good to yell at somebody when things are their fault, but its a lot better to never get angry in the first place and just fucking be nice dammit.
i can get a job doing calligraphy, i just gotta take a class. how exciting.
my brother leaves to go back to iraq tomorrow. i wish i could have seen him more while he was here these 2 weeks.
things really are going swell to tell the truth, as a whole at least, i cant complain.
i am doing this because i am bored.
lately i have been realizing that feelings are just feelings and if i keep feeling and not thinking then life is always going to suck, and feelings mean nothing. i am constantly thinking real hard into things but when i feel something i cant think logically, i only feel that feeling, and when i feel it i feel it a lot. and before i trusted my feelings but now i know you can not do that!
also, i got tired of hating people, it was too much work, so i thought good things about people and found its a lot easier to just be nice. it feels so good to yell at somebody when things are their fault, but its a lot better to never get angry in the first place and just fucking be nice dammit.
i can get a job doing calligraphy, i just gotta take a class. how exciting.
my brother leaves to go back to iraq tomorrow. i wish i could have seen him more while he was here these 2 weeks.
things really are going swell to tell the truth, as a whole at least, i cant complain.
i am doing this because i am bored.