Distractions are welcome attractions
So my brother's in jail. Not the first time, but this is the longest he's ever been kept over. Suffice to say, I was in a bad mood and completely brushed off my friends Friday (which I feel slightly guilty about), but I just.. really don't want to see anyone. He called me last night asking to deliver a message to his girlfriend, then started rambling semi-incoherently about how he never wants to be here again and apologizing, telling me to apologize to everyone. He was struggling not to, but he was crying. GOD I couldn't bear to hear it. It's depressing as hell seeing your big bro break down. But I acted as strong as I could and kept his mind busy 'til the lockdown. I've been feeling a lot of scorn, but also miserable because I want to do something to help because that's my brother, and can't.
Next week I have to visit with the lawyer and will be able to see about bail, but at the moment I'm looking to distract myself in every way possible. Revisiting SF3 has been great for that. I need to get 4.. and a PS3. Drawing has been a fun way to kill time too, and I even pulled out my guitar after X number of years. I really got to try and reserve a certain amount of time for "me" things that do not involve anyone else at least once a week. I've greatly missed alone-time. Not to mention I gotta portofilio due in a few weeks and really should start working on it.
I also still haven't watched ep BSG 417 that I taped Friday night, which is uncanny (I usually watch it the minute I get home) but will be getting to now. It's like putting off eating a delicious piece of cake, refridgerating and forgetting about it, then being delighted to discover it later on when you've got a craving for something sweet. But honestly, coming on the internet not up-to-date is dangerous if you wanna stay as spoiler-free as I have.
Next week I have to visit with the lawyer and will be able to see about bail, but at the moment I'm looking to distract myself in every way possible. Revisiting SF3 has been great for that. I need to get 4.. and a PS3. Drawing has been a fun way to kill time too, and I even pulled out my guitar after X number of years. I really got to try and reserve a certain amount of time for "me" things that do not involve anyone else at least once a week. I've greatly missed alone-time. Not to mention I gotta portofilio due in a few weeks and really should start working on it.
I also still haven't watched ep BSG 417 that I taped Friday night, which is uncanny (I usually watch it the minute I get home) but will be getting to now. It's like putting off eating a delicious piece of cake, refridgerating and forgetting about it, then being delighted to discover it later on when you've got a craving for something sweet. But honestly, coming on the internet not up-to-date is dangerous if you wanna stay as spoiler-free as I have.