Apr 12, 2005 18:42
It's my birthday. Woot. Unfortunately, aside from the very adorable phone calls from relatives including one from Momzy where she and Andy attempted three different starting pitches before each choosing their own for the Bday song (so cute), my day has been less than stellar. It is raining. I am sick. I locked myself out of my apartment. This means I have been wandering campus since nine this morning, rather than taking a much needed nap. Blast. On the upside, I did enter a bunch of data for my thesis, so I guess that's good. Am generally delirious. Also, being locked out means I can't loan Mike my camera for the evening like I promised I would. Crap. Had thesis meeting, once again felt entirely inadequate, probably because I am. Everyone else is doing a study on curing alzheimers or new methods of treating depression and I'm like "uhhhh I'm researching completely random esoteric stuff that nobody cares about . . . " Ah well. They can suck it. I talked to mummzy and she pointed out that I should just suck it up and stop bemoaning my lack of subjects so I can enjoy my senior year. I've decided this is a good idea. The fact that I will have no results because I have ridiculously too few subjects is just too bad. I can still write a paper even if I don't get honors at least I still did something. It's just frustrating. My design is crap and I started too late. Plus I feel my advisor was not right for this study. But that's all too late so I just have to make the best of it now. Oh, and Lauren says she still wants to come to CA and all that stuff was just rumors but . . . she did apply for teach for america and hears back on Thurs. Hmmm. Um it might have been good if you had at least let me know . . . blast. If she gets it that's a really cool experience that I can't begrudge her, but at the same time, I'm worried and sort of hurt/pissed. Oh well. I'll deal. I need some sleep. Alas, I must go be a college feminist instead. So much to do, so little time, so feeling like shit . . . . and it's yucky outside. Meh.