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[lobo04]

well looks like we got rselves a shitty little house in bonney lake...hoofukkinray ☼sigh☼

i loathe moving

i dont want to live with my dad anymore but i dont have much uv a choice if he quits his job (and he very well might...jeff is an asshole to work for) then hes going to need me to pay bills
he always says we gotta stick together heh
i owe him that much for taking care uv me past age 18 for nothing
i cant really afford to move out on my own and i dont want to live with someone else i already decided that...unless its one very specific person (which is impossible) it just wouldnt work i would go nuts
and my dog...if i left i couldnt take her couldnt afford to take her and probably wouldnt have the energy to walk her constantly to go to the bathroom as im sure id end up in an apartment which is no life for her . she needs a yard and squirrels to chase and it wouldnt be fair for her to live in an apartment

so moving with him it is

what else can i do really?

i dont see life ever improving

i also see no reason to keep living it but i do anyways

will i ever be repaid for whats been taken away?

i doubt that too