Jul 03, 2003 10:40
I'm ready...this is my conclusion. Ready to breathe, ready to believe, ready to want, ready to take a chance, ready to do, ready to believe in myself, I'm ready to live. Truly. I'm not scared...? I am scared, but that's ok, it just means I'm human & that I'm truly living, truly feeling. I can't go another day without truly feeling...why must I always doubt myself? Because I'm scared to find out the answers-bullshit-I make my own answers to my own damn questions and it's my life & I better take charge of it...God, I just feel it...everything's changing...but I'm ready, I want to embrace life instead of being scared of it, being scared of myself...
To be ready you have to let go. Which is where I find myself...this little girl grabbing on to mommy in the ocean, too scared to swim by herself, unaware of all the wonders there are in this whole new world waiting for her...but I have to find out, I've reached this point where I have to take a deep breathe & just...go.