BORRED..
Okay, so I'm really tired right now, but I had to get up. My mom has this thing where you can't sleep past 9:00 AM.. so if she lets me sleep till 10:00 that's amazing.. haha [I slept till 10:30 bc/ the madre wasn't here..GO ME =]
So I was thinking about alot last night, as I was talking to Brittany. Like she opened my mind to alot of stuff, I don't think she even meant to.. she is soo awesome.. and we have been talking alot since Sunday, which is good also bc/ I've had nothing else to do.. =[
Sometimes I wonder.. if anyone out there really knows how I feel.. like on the inside? Are they feeling the same feelings? Does anyone even care for that matter? I talked to Kellie yesterday about the way my family is treating me, how I'm getting a job soon [PRAISE GOD!]. The things I was telling her needed to come out.. and I soon felt very re-energized.. I know i need to get into my Word more, bc/ that's what I'm lacking.. and I know God can do all things, so I continue to pray each day that He will deliver me from this. I just want to get away. I want to go back to Ohio or something. Where I know, there is noone there that can hurt me.. at least for a couple weeks. ?? What I mean by "noone there to hurt me", I mean emotionally & mentally. After a while the things my brothers say to me takes a toll on ALL of my relationships.. I wonder "Why am I always picked as a last resort?" I always sike myself out before I know the actually facts.. [Is this making ANY since??] I just feel left out alot.. and maybe it's me making myself feel that way, I'm not sure.
WOW, that helped alot.. I think I'm going to like this livejournal thing =]
xHOBBY
So I was thinking about alot last night, as I was talking to Brittany. Like she opened my mind to alot of stuff, I don't think she even meant to.. she is soo awesome.. and we have been talking alot since Sunday, which is good also bc/ I've had nothing else to do.. =[
Sometimes I wonder.. if anyone out there really knows how I feel.. like on the inside? Are they feeling the same feelings? Does anyone even care for that matter? I talked to Kellie yesterday about the way my family is treating me, how I'm getting a job soon [PRAISE GOD!]. The things I was telling her needed to come out.. and I soon felt very re-energized.. I know i need to get into my Word more, bc/ that's what I'm lacking.. and I know God can do all things, so I continue to pray each day that He will deliver me from this. I just want to get away. I want to go back to Ohio or something. Where I know, there is noone there that can hurt me.. at least for a couple weeks. ?? What I mean by "noone there to hurt me", I mean emotionally & mentally. After a while the things my brothers say to me takes a toll on ALL of my relationships.. I wonder "Why am I always picked as a last resort?" I always sike myself out before I know the actually facts.. [Is this making ANY since??] I just feel left out alot.. and maybe it's me making myself feel that way, I'm not sure.
WOW, that helped alot.. I think I'm going to like this livejournal thing =]
xHOBBY