Don't expect much.
I'm supposed to be a leader this semester. How can a man lead who is questioning the give-and-take perspective of a leader-follower system? It's all so very un-trusting, so sheep-and-shepherd. It's not even that I don't think we need a leader. It's that I don't know if any of us are fit to lead each other. It's like we're all just sheep. And what right has one sheep to say to another: "you must follow me"?
And how can I, even if I should, lead them onwards towards Christ? I have and am, as Francis put it, "tarrying in sin." Fear and rejection have left me crippled. The only things I truly appreciate are God's grace, a hard days' work and nice, cold beer. And I don't even like the taste of beer that much. Still, if there is grace, perhaps there is hope. Hope for the flowers.
And how can I, even if I should, lead them onwards towards Christ? I have and am, as Francis put it, "tarrying in sin." Fear and rejection have left me crippled. The only things I truly appreciate are God's grace, a hard days' work and nice, cold beer. And I don't even like the taste of beer that much. Still, if there is grace, perhaps there is hope. Hope for the flowers.