Issues...

[lobatshlova]

OMG, I've been SO tired. Not a lot has been going on in my life. I hardly EVER get to see Chris any more. Its been making me think, about how we might not get to see each other anymore. And, if we won't get to see each other anymore, if it would do something to our relationship. Its driving me CRAZY, because I've been having mixed emotions about everything. Its so hard to talk to someone about whats been going on. They are all trying to help, by trying to get us to see each other more, but its my own problem and I don't know if they can fix it. Its all frusterating, because I love him so much, but if we can't spend enough time together, then I don't know if I'll feel the same way in a couple of months. I really don't like thinking about it, but my brain keeps thinking about it because I can't see him. I saw him more over the summer than I have in the past few days. And we're both so busy with homework and such, that I don't even get to talk to him online. Or if I do Monica kicks me off. Sometimes I hate being in Wind symph because if I was in Freshman Band I would have a class with him. But it wouldn't challenge me at all, and I wouldn't improve and I'd be bored all the time.

If anyone can help me, comment because I like hearing what people have to say.