I never imagine....
I never imagine this thing could happen to me again...
same thing happens again...
but now, I'm better. No more roller coaster. No more falling down so hard until it hurts so much. I sounds like a drama-queen, do I? sorry, just for this time I hope.
Now I'm afraid to even look at news and find that thing become "official". My heart is denying it, and it convinces my mind to do so. So here I am, too afraid being hurt by the exact same fact again.
I don't know why I keep compare it with the previous one, maybe past really affecting me so much.
Now I'm so sad and frustrated. But if it's what he chooses himself. I can't say a word but a best for him (even inside I'll be missing him so bad). And thank him for the great days, he really makes me happy and forget my stress.
Is it a dream? a nightmare?
I'll be missing you babyryu ;__;
*sorry for such being a drama-queen*
*feels like I've lost my zashiki bokko, bad things KEEP happening since I read the news*
same thing happens again...
but now, I'm better. No more roller coaster. No more falling down so hard until it hurts so much. I sounds like a drama-queen, do I? sorry, just for this time I hope.
Now I'm afraid to even look at news and find that thing become "official". My heart is denying it, and it convinces my mind to do so. So here I am, too afraid being hurt by the exact same fact again.
I don't know why I keep compare it with the previous one, maybe past really affecting me so much.
Now I'm so sad and frustrated. But if it's what he chooses himself. I can't say a word but a best for him (even inside I'll be missing him so bad). And thank him for the great days, he really makes me happy and forget my stress.
Is it a dream? a nightmare?
I'll be missing you babyryu ;__;
*sorry for such being a drama-queen*
*feels like I've lost my zashiki bokko, bad things KEEP happening since I read the news*