Please excuse the rant..
It's all falling apart, and I can't even fully realize it.
There are so many things on my mind that I want to get out. So many things I NEED to say, but I'm too afraid. I don't like being afraid. I don't want to worry about hurting another person's feelings because of this. They need to hear it just as much as I need to say it.
You know, it's so misleading. He tells me one thing, then tells me another, and then he tells me that I get all of the shit, and I don't even realize it, and that I deserve so much better. He's the one giving me all of the shit. I hate how I can't hate him. I hate this. I hate it. I don't know what to do.
This isn't even a big issue. I just need to step up and have the courage to say what I mean to say WHEN I mean to say it. He's such a hypocrite. He's such an asshole, and I don't think he even realizes it. He knows that I'll always be there, and I think he uses it against me. He spends his time feeling sorry for himself, when others don't do that for him. It's getting on my last nerve. HE'S getting on my last nerve. I love him so much, but I'm getting tired of dealing with this all.
GAH.
There are so many things on my mind that I want to get out. So many things I NEED to say, but I'm too afraid. I don't like being afraid. I don't want to worry about hurting another person's feelings because of this. They need to hear it just as much as I need to say it.
You know, it's so misleading. He tells me one thing, then tells me another, and then he tells me that I get all of the shit, and I don't even realize it, and that I deserve so much better. He's the one giving me all of the shit. I hate how I can't hate him. I hate this. I hate it. I don't know what to do.
This isn't even a big issue. I just need to step up and have the courage to say what I mean to say WHEN I mean to say it. He's such a hypocrite. He's such an asshole, and I don't think he even realizes it. He knows that I'll always be there, and I think he uses it against me. He spends his time feeling sorry for himself, when others don't do that for him. It's getting on my last nerve. HE'S getting on my last nerve. I love him so much, but I'm getting tired of dealing with this all.
GAH.