I swear that its not mine
Hello! My parents threw a salmon/halibut party. Yes, only in orinda. My dad came back from Alaska with a bunch of fish, and so we threw a party, again. For being hippies, my parents sure like parties. Pat and Henry came over and they played with some babies.... look at the pictures!!
Can you start out hating something and then grow to love it?
Friday, Fabio (my dads italian business friend) came over. Had dinner at my house. Drove around. Saw ellery walking to jun juns to pay for her massive sushi bill with casey, and drew gave her a ride. Then he dropped me off at alexs. Drama----how do I go to matts without offending my favorite people? Solution:dont go to matts until AFTER going out with sam and the ladies (al, ken, kellie) and going to caseys first. Fun, then utterly and complete shit. Somehow i was stuck in the shower of brads van... effing weird. Went home cuz i had vball the next morning at eight. NOT FUN
Saturday, vball errrrraggghhh (this expresses my anger at having to spend EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY THREE DAY WEEKEND INDOORS PLAYING VOLLEYBALL!) Went out with cris. To the city. Did Crazy things.... that are ooo so mysterious shhhhhh
We are just wicked rebels like that
Follow the adventure
Very english rocker chick cris
B to the E-A-U-T-Y (thats a song btw)
and so it begins...
waiting for the train...
cris and me, riding the train...
Where do we get off?!?! (contemplating)
Contemplating about something else
gee.... cris just likes to contemplate
Down the stairs and off we go
Went to alexs fun as always without the slightest bit of awkwardness. riiight.
Went home and did my whole emo thing. Which was a continuation from fridays, which continued the whole weekend. Too bad I still love you.
Took Toms advice, and went to bed at 2.
Sunday, volleyball again. Coolness (not)
Wrote emails
Talked to my mom and had my revelations. Shared them with someone special.
Alex came over, we painted our nails, tanned, watch like 500 movies. Inc. Triplets of Bellville (weird french people??) Rob, John and (i think someone in the back?) stopped by being helluv loud. Cool, loved how i explained that to my dad. Cuz he thought i like came home with them???
Went to bed early.
Woke up early. Wrote another email. I love how that works.
played vball, fucked up my feet so now they are all taped up. believe me its hot.
nations tisa came and got me with jess, henry, and aaron. Always fun. Came home, took a shower. Like i said party and babies. Chilean guy walking around my front yard (japanese zen garden thingamabob). Always fun.
Thanks for everyone that has tried to support me through everything. Everything you guys do or say helps me a little bit more.
Sometimes you just gotta hold it all in.
Thinking of you.
Listening to my slightly stoopid and pepper mix. And here are some lyrics i think are wicked cool and totally relate to every damn thing im feeling right now.
Dont look for reasons why not.
Dont worry if its over, I'll just wait patiently.
I'm feeling depressed and real low...I know theres no way back from this.
It's like I did something wrong, but I guess its something I missed.
I'm a wanting watching you walk away
Aint it funny? How everybody knows but you?
thinking how I could
just get one response, maybe a glance
but the system has it's rules about the second chance
Ill find a way to let you know.
To the questions that your asking, I only expected everything. These arms of mine are burning as I see, as I see the pages turning.
Every place I go. I'll think of you.
I'm a lover, I'm a lover who says shes sorry.
Theres nothing you could ever do. To stop me from stopping you.