Sometimes the truth is unknowable.
Oh my god. I am updating AGAIN. What the fuck?
Ya this is pretty much another senseless post. I have no pictures, deal with it. Reading this is something to do instead of being extremely bored anyway.
Grades came in.
Maybe I'll get into college...
I live in a monochromatic world. I’m stuck in a prison leaked of all its color. It’s been glued and shaped back together with newspaper papier-mâché to cover all the tiny cracks that nobody feels like looking at. I don’t know how long I’ve been here, so I won’t try and explain what my days are like. I could have spent a million years in this room, and I would have no way of knowing. I guess that’s the first thing that goes: your sense of time. The truth is my sanity is packaged up in little pieces and people keep coming to take them away. They wear crisp white coats, always, and they won’t leave me alone. They come into the room where I was put, and they ask me why I cry in my sleep. I don’t say anything. What’s the point, if no one will ever understand? Sometimes I miss Jason so much that I think my heart will burst and all my blood will trickle off my bed and seep into the floor. Eventually I’ll turn as white as the four walls in this cage and melt away.
(I wonder if we would appreaciate the beauty of black and white if we didnt live in color)
I dont know why i believe in fate.
Or karma.
Or destiny.
Or being meant to be together.
But i do anyway.
I saw Closer again last night. I love movies that you can watch over again and see things you didnt see the first time.
Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off. But its better if you do.
How true.
I lie all the time. For no reason. I guess that makes me like Holden. And the girl in garden state. Does that mean you cant trust me?
I had this random conversation with an 8th grader:
prettybunnyxxx: My question is, what is it like to be a freshman
prettybunnyxxx: like do u get picked on and made funof or w/ever
prettybunnyxxx: ?
Entirely Lovable: no you dont
Entirely Lovable: dont worry about it
prettybunnyxxx: is there anything i should or shouldnt do? any advice?
Entirely Lovable: just be yourself
prettybunnyxxx: no advice?
prettybunnyxxx: !
Entirely Lovable: you cant live life the way other people advise you to
prettybunnyxxx: k, fine
I dont think she was satisfied.
I like people that smile when they play volleyball.
And people whose cheeks turn red. (i love you)
And people that know that its okay to hide sometimes.
And people that want to understand.
The way they feel.
And so I leave you.
Come back again soon.