It looks almost as reality...

[lo2s_project]

Failing one assignment, missing days when I was a top student without doing anything. One way or the other - spending my days nicely. Raul thinks I should find a job; I think a job should find me. Because that's how it is with the best things in my life - they just came, without me struggling or making any effort at all. Have you ever experienced a situation when you struggle so hard, put your all your heart inside something and it just didn't seen to work? And then you left it and after some time this something came to you just like that, naturally, without you even thinking about it? Well, that's basically the thing in my life I love the most. I just adore such occasions. Of course someone may point out that the effort you put in the beginning simply triggers your brain to come up with the ready answer later on but I like to see it as a little miracle, not something that can be explained scientifically. It happens - and it's wonderful, without any additional philosophy. It can be applied to anything: school, appearance, even sex.

My New Year's resolution: I'm gonna read A la recherche du temps perdu, all the seven volumes. Obviously I'm gonna do that in English, as they don't have a Polish translation in the library (but they have it in the original version, so I can try to read in English and French simultaneously). And I will stop hurting people, though it's gonna be hard as hell, considering my depression which turns into aggression which turns into fury.

Da message to all da world: don't try to change, 'cause as the years go by, u r only gonna be more of ur self.