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I don't know why I have been thinking so much of him lately. I guess I spent so much time after we broke up trying to not think about him so it wouldn't hurt that now is when I can think about him and say it truly doesn't hurt me as much to think about him. It's more like I think about him and all I feel is wanting him but yet not. It's more like I really miss him more than anything. After all, we spent so much time together that it was like a part of me was ripped off and from one day to another, it was gone and out of my life never to be seen again. It's now been a month and it's incredible how so many things have changed in between. I have progressed so much and have advanced in everything that I have been doing. I guess now that im not so focused on one person all the time, I am able to focus on my things a lot more. I have more attention to my needs now and not someone elses. The best thing about this all is that my confidence has boosted big time. What I miss is not what we had. What I miss is him as a person. Your heart never quite lets go of certain people as much as you try. I'm slowly but surely moving on and it definetly feels good to be feeling better.
Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of this time
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you
You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me
Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of this time
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you
You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me