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i had my last class the other night. it was really the last time i will ever go to class. i can't get over it yet. we went to dinner after and i realized i should've spent more time with some of my classmates. we'd have had good times. school has always been such a huge part of my life. until now, i'd always known what i'd be doing next. well, i still technically have a plan for the future, but it's different b/c i really had a lot of options and picked this one. this whole london thing is strange though b/c i don't really have a clear yes from the lord. i don't have a no either. dad told me that he thinks sometimes God lets you choose. if you do your best to pay attention and say yes, you can choose from several things that can all be equally right. that really messed me up at first b/c i'd had the whole perfect will of God thing drilled into my head forever. i think there is a plan, but i think i've spent a lot of wasted energy fretting that over decisions that didn't need that much analyzing. it seems to makes sense that after a lifetime of seeking God and really listening out for him, my thoughts may very well he his thoughts. i think he talks to us in ways we can understand. i think he talks to me like i talk to others. God has a smart mouth, i must say. i think some of the things i think about really are him even though it just seems like something i'd think about on my own. so, that's interesting. so, london. it could really be him. i think it is and i just can't accept i could be doing something so cool. if i could just get the blasted forms done. geez. now, on to exciting news. i have a job lined up for the month of june. it's a summer program for middle schoolers and i will be running social skills groups all day, 5x a week for a that month. i think i get like, $15-20/hr. then i got a call today for an interview for some contract work. set my own hrs, get paid pretty well. it's not a bad gig. i will be transporting children to supervised visits with their parents. i get to sit and watch and then write about it. this is assuming i get the job, of course, but i should have no problems. the job interview is at cracker barrell. that is funny. man, this is long.