so yea...it's been awhile...
I figured I would just write in here to express a little emotion...I know its been forever...
I'm so torn right now...I don't know what to think or what to do...I'm filled with confusion and my heart aches. I'm so jealous of * and i am so ill about it. I didn't want to be with @...I was just restless. and now it's all I can think about. I don't know what to do, but we've been through enough. @ probably doesn't want me anyways...and all I want is to spend time with @. im just something @ can throw away....what @ really wants is * and I can't handle that.
Then theres %. I love %, but he drives me crazy. I don't know what I want from this relationship. I know % wants to be forever...but I don't know if that is it...I'm so scared...I'm so scared to be alone...
I'm so torn right now...I don't know what to think or what to do...I'm filled with confusion and my heart aches. I'm so jealous of * and i am so ill about it. I didn't want to be with @...I was just restless. and now it's all I can think about. I don't know what to do, but we've been through enough. @ probably doesn't want me anyways...and all I want is to spend time with @. im just something @ can throw away....what @ really wants is * and I can't handle that.
Then theres %. I love %, but he drives me crazy. I don't know what I want from this relationship. I know % wants to be forever...but I don't know if that is it...I'm so scared...I'm so scared to be alone...