..Varnished..
Jane. This is my first entry..so please bare with me..um...let's see thing's about me..Jane.Army.Driver.Married/unhappily.Missed.Loved.Wanted. I realy wish I was home. There are alot of thing's in my life that I feel like I made a mistake in and this is one of them. I use to do alot of bad thing's in my past..and most of the thing's that i did I regret alot..if I was not in the army..I would probally have already over dosed..on pills and just took to many hits..but how I miss those good old days..I am in Iraq..and stationed at FT.Drum , NY..which I have seen more Iraq than FT.Drum, I met my husband there..you see he is actually a realy good guy. I fell in love with his friendship...and I knew he was gonna be coming over with me..so we got married..it was way to soon ..and now I feel as if ..I am being watched like a hawk..he wants to be all jealous about everything..and I have never even done anything to him..I realy miss the friendship that we had once. I don't think were gonna work out much longer. My life has gone by so fast ..it seems that not even I can keep up..going on 21 ....ugh..I just wish I could turn it all around and go back to highschool..and redo everything I fucked up..but I know I can't take that away..the only good thing is that I am in realy good shape..I love being firm..ha..boring I know..let's see the people I love..I love my cousin more than life it's self she is my heart..I dont know what I would do with out her in my life...but anyways..it is early in the morning..as I wake up in my trailor..and lather lotion up my flesh..and put my hair up..in a tie..to keep it away from my face..my boots slide onto my feet ..as I zip up my top..my assault pack goes upon my back...and weapon over my shoulder...off out the door I go once more into this world..I call home