fuck you
Im sick of havening to walk on fucking eggshells around people cause they cant fucking deal with it when im not even in a bad mood But you know hey whenever you wanna bitch and moan thats fine. Fuck that. Im sick of feeling like i should always feel bad for everything that im not even doing wrong. IM NOT DOING ANYTHING WRONG. And if i am i really would like to be told in a kind manner not one that puts me in the bad mood that is being fought over. I shouldn't have to always censor my feelings to people. I mean if i say im not in a bad mood dont be like oh well yes you are.. ARGHHHHHH. I dont want to always feel bad when i know i didnt do anything wrong. All i ever do is try so hard to be nice and try to help out everyone as much as i can and i get shit for it. Im sick of always being made to feel like an asshole. And i dont want to have to write journal entries fucking ranting about stupid petty things. Im so completely frustrated with my life right now. No matter what, whatever i do, whatever i dont do, or if i do anythign for myself, im always the wrong one. Well fine ok im always wrong and everyone else is always right. And its always about completely ridiculous things. Forget ill just go back to the way i was. COld, distant, with a really fake smile and act like i love everything about everyone and never be right and never stand up for myself or have an opinion unless it pleases everyone else. Yupp cause thats when i got the least amount of shit.. but thats also when i did nothing but cry and be really pissed on the inside. Well as long as everyone else is happy then i dont fucking matter right? Good. And if im completely wrong in this entry and everyone hates me.. well then hey im always wrong right so no big surprise