Day 1: My Lilah...

[lm_fox]

So I set up a Lilah Month LJ.

Dude, I am so lame.

It's all sallyanne's fault, really.

*coughs*

Yeah.

My Lilah...

1. Went to Bryn Mawr. Of course.
2. Was a double-major in English and Poli Sci, with a minor in Cities, and would have been in the top two percent of the class if Bryn Mawr specified that. Which it doesn't. So she never found out officially.
3. Found out unofficially, though.
4. Will eventually stop gloating.
5. But not anytime soon.
6. Believes gloating can be completely classy, when it's done right.
7. Gloats right.
8. Likes boys. A lot.
9. Likes girls even more.
10. Would fuck anything that moves.
11. Has no problems with one-night stands.
12. Will never have sex if it doesn’t mean something. Even if that something is just that she needs to get laid.
13. Slept with Lindsey.
14. Three times.
15. The second two were both to see if the previous time was really just a mistake.
16. They weren't.
17. Once walked in on Lindsey masturbating while staring at a picture of Angel.
18. Said nothing at the time.
19. Acquired the security videotapes.
20. Has been blackmailing him since sometime mid-season one.
21. Wasn't sure for a really long time if she loved Angel or hated him.
22. Is now sure. It's definitely hate.
23. Spent most of her life with love and hate so intertwined she couldn't tell the difference.
24. Really, truly loved Wes.
25. Knew she did.
26. Believes on some level that Wesley loved her for her.
27. Believes on the rest of the levels that Wes loved her but was distracted by Fred, that bitch.
28. Really hates Fred.
29. Would have really liked Fred if she hadn't distracting Wes.
30. Or if they'd slept together.
31. Wished she could have slept with Fred.
32. Especially if Wes could have found out afterwards.
33. Wanted desperately to please people, until she realized she never would.
34. Now settles for pleasing herself, which she always does.
35. Thinks Angel's view of morality is so rigid that it's completely useless.
36. Likes that as a way to justify her own behavior.
37. Has killed in cold blood.
38. Didn't enjoy it, but didn't particularly mind it either.
39. Would have killed Angel for Wes in a minute, except she thinks that might have pissed Wesley off.
40. Wishes she'd killed Angel during Wes's seriously nihilistic phase, as that would have solved a ton of problems.
41. Never would have done it, because that would have been career suicide.
42. Loves her job more than she'd like to admit.
43. Would have sold out anyone at Wolfram and Hart for Wesley in a second.
44. Has been interested in Cordelia Chase since she first got Doyle's superpowers.
45. Would have fucked Cordelia during Billy for the shoes alone.
46. Only didn't because of Cordelia's sick attachment to Angel.
47. Is still bitter Angel (et al) ruined Caritas for her, as she used to kick all kinds of ass at karaoke.
48. Is also bitter the Beast killed a lot of her work colleagues before she could do it herself.
49. Would have paid ridiculously large sums of money for the privilege of killing Gavin herself.
50. Loves everything she did with Wes, but still thinks the best moment of her life was decapitating Linwood.
51. Is fairly sure that, if she'd gone to Heaven, she would spend her entire afterlife reliving that moment.
52. Is also pretty sure that's why she's in Hell instead.
53. Was in the Circle of the Black Thorn.
54. Realizes that's the only thing that saved her from the Beast killing her during his Wolfram and Hart Rampage.
55. Understands why she got killed.
56. Wishes it hadn't been by Cordelia's hand.
57. Is still glad it was by Cordelia rather than Angel.
58. Would never have forgiven herself if Angel had beaten her.
59. Knows that the one thing she would never do for Wesley is give in to Angel.
60. Would do a hell of a lot of other things for Wesley.
61. Is still surprised he didn't ask if she'd be interested in a threesome with Gunn.
62. Would have been.
63. Has had sex with Faith.
64. Would like to do it again.
65. Has not told Wesley.
66. Thinks the idea of Faith torturing Wesley is one of the hottest things in the world.
67. Thinks the idea of Wes torturing Faith is even hotter.
68. Is a complete dominatrix.
69. Would sub to Wesley in a second.
70. Thinks sex is about power.
71. Thinks power is often about sex.
72. Is convinced she's incredibly liberated about sex, and is mostly right, although not as much as she thinks she is.
73. Fantasizes about staking Angel more than she fantasizes about fucking Wesley.
74. Fantasizes about fucking Wesley a lot.
75. Doesn't regret a thing.